Newfiechic - OF

[newfiechic]

Interesting, that says that hybrid is definately stirring more things up. Hybrid is generally the most powerful, but if you're someone who hates being told what to do it can come across too forceful and be like "No, i'm not doing that" in which case masked might be better.

In this case it sounds like hybrid is getting through where masked wasn't. So I think it might be good to try to stay a bit longer with hybrid, if it's not too overwhelming for you.

Panicky feelings, nausea definately sound like some fears being worked on.

I generally am someone who hates being told what to do, but that more or less comes from trauma as a child of having an abusive father who I was always expected to listen to or else. So I guess that is a fear in and of itself that needs to be worked on.

Well, my biggest fears are of nausea/vomiting and of panicking haha, so that is is very likely the case that it is working on it. Today was excellent and totally different. I felt calmer, spaced out and relaxed, no nausea...and extremely tired. I fell asleep 4 hours in and had a 5-6 hour nap.

I am going to continue to listen to it. Previously I would not be able to tolerate the feelings, but I have learned through meditation to allow the feelings to be there so I have been using that to get through it.

I'm happy with today, I actually feel like I had some kind of breakthrough. I will see what tomorrow brings.