OF 5.75

[kuroshabedi]

Right now i woke up from a dream about one of my fears i wasnt conscious of.

In that dream i was with a girl i think she supposed to be my gf and there were two other males that supposed to be my friends and we had a competition through games. I was feeling very uncomfortable. This came due my fear that i was always uncomfortable with showing my gf to other friends or spending time together with other while my gf is there too. This is totally illogical but it was ver y important to me how my gf thinks about me and i was afraid that when the negativity of others try to push me down she would see me no longer as alpha. So every situation of competition with others while my gf was there was a threat for me. So i was afraid of not beeing alpha and witty enough in some situations and this fear showed in beeing angry at her (i really think the root cause of beeing angry is always fear).

So to sum it up my ego which hides behind my fears was always afraid of this situations and i tried to avoid them but they are totally illogical.. 

those dreams are really uncomformtable because they dive deep but its neccessary to let go