09-26-2020, 06:24 AM
Third Cycle Day 4 - Not irritated today like I was yesterday. I think some of that may have been due to boredom or like @Shannon stated my mind resisting the program. I woke up feeling really calm. It just sort of hit me that things I stress out and worry about aren't worth making myself crazy over. Something is either going to happen or it's not. So often it hasn't happened .Sadly that anxiety or worry somehow became a habit. Not exactly very productive. That's probably the reason why I don't understand why people throw tantrums or fits . I noticed one day by accident that in the time the fit or tantrum was thrown that very often whatever the issue was caused have been resolved. Makes me curious how much of fear is just irrationality or immaturity. I honestly believe that as I work towards being more and more fearless I will become more independent and self reliant than I have ever been. I won't become anxious or stuck in analysis paralysis that makes me overthink everything to the point I get frozen.
