09-22-2020, 06:23 AM
Second Cycle Off Day 3 - I got woken up by my cat this morning as usual. Feel good. No real anxiety. If there is it's either about wanting to get shit done or not wanting to do some of the things I have to on a daily basis as a part of my job. Most of the time I'm ok with it but because I am a live in aid for a disabled person it's an every day thing. No days off for that. It's spaced out though over the day. This week is a bit crazy for my Wife and I as well because she has doctors appointments to go to and I accompany her . I may have mentioned before how because of our situation and other factors it's easy to feel like you have to sacrifice a lot to make things work and also not be able to do or have a lot of the things that people tend to take for granted. The plus side of that is that because we are the way we are we aren't bogged down or overwhelmed with lots of material possessions or obligations. Yet another beautiful aspect of running OF is to lose that fear of missing out. I would think that at my age I wouldn't care and I want to get to that point. I have struggled for a long time to figure out how to not be distracted by anything that keeps me from doing what I need to do or allows me to make excuses for being lazy and irresponsible. That is why I have forced myself to stay off social media and often limit my online or screen time. It's so counterproductive.
