09-13-2020, 10:32 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-13-2020, 10:46 AM by JCasterlin.)
First Cycle Last Day Off - I had a dream last night that I poured an entire bucket of some kind of cleaner over the head of a guy I worked with at a temp job I had prior to the quarantine. I don't recall how I felt I just remember roin it. The guy was an incredibly unpleasant person to be around most days. I sort of see this as a step towards losing the fear of standing up for myself or allowing someone to disrespect me or the people I care about.
I remember @Shannon stating in the sales page for OF that you would look back and wonder how you lived that way. I'm paraphrasing here a bit. I am starting to see that in my own life as I am constantly asking myself how I placed such importance on things or people that I would have been far better off staying the hell away from? Or how I let myself be so afraid or fearful of something so obviously silly?
I spent a lot of years forcing myself to be an extrovert when in reality I would have been so much happier just working, keeping to myself , and doing my own thing. The headaches and drama I could have easily avoided.
At this point I am embracing minimalism and JOMO ( Joy of missing out) as opposed to FOMO ( fear of missing out) that I allowed myself to feel for most of not all my life. I don't see the point in making myself miserable over anything anymore especially material possessions.
I remember @Shannon stating in the sales page for OF that you would look back and wonder how you lived that way. I'm paraphrasing here a bit. I am starting to see that in my own life as I am constantly asking myself how I placed such importance on things or people that I would have been far better off staying the hell away from? Or how I let myself be so afraid or fearful of something so obviously silly?
I spent a lot of years forcing myself to be an extrovert when in reality I would have been so much happier just working, keeping to myself , and doing my own thing. The headaches and drama I could have easily avoided.
At this point I am embracing minimalism and JOMO ( Joy of missing out) as opposed to FOMO ( fear of missing out) that I allowed myself to feel for most of not all my life. I don't see the point in making myself miserable over anything anymore especially material possessions.
