09-01-2020, 03:41 AM
Starting round 9 tonight.
Going to twitch to Hybrid from Ultrasonic for a few rounds to mix it up.
I have moved into my own place with my GF and everything is nearly settled, just a few more finishing touches and we can start .... life. Been a busy week indeed.
I am looking forward to starting my degree and I have been organising my mind to prepare for the inevitable.
Some negative things that have come up again recently it's in regards to thinking about other women, a feeling of wanting to experience something new and fresh, for a lack of better words. Entwined with that is the feeling of not finding my GF as attractive, and then also thinking that anything can change in 4 years time and I could have a different life with someone else. The last time this come up was yesterday and I went for a walk and felt free and I picked up all these different vibes of this new area (which is really beautiful and peaceful) and it made me think and feel the potentials of different lives with different people and the feeling of that felt good, free and new and fresh and different. I dont know why this comes up, as it seems to come and go, I am not sure if it is a cause for concern or if it is related to fear of commitment, sticking to one person. Living with someone in this context is a complete new experience for both of us, even just living in my own house is a new experience. So with this new territory there is a lot to naturally and inevitably learn.
Going to twitch to Hybrid from Ultrasonic for a few rounds to mix it up.
I have moved into my own place with my GF and everything is nearly settled, just a few more finishing touches and we can start .... life. Been a busy week indeed.
I am looking forward to starting my degree and I have been organising my mind to prepare for the inevitable.
Some negative things that have come up again recently it's in regards to thinking about other women, a feeling of wanting to experience something new and fresh, for a lack of better words. Entwined with that is the feeling of not finding my GF as attractive, and then also thinking that anything can change in 4 years time and I could have a different life with someone else. The last time this come up was yesterday and I went for a walk and felt free and I picked up all these different vibes of this new area (which is really beautiful and peaceful) and it made me think and feel the potentials of different lives with different people and the feeling of that felt good, free and new and fresh and different. I dont know why this comes up, as it seems to come and go, I am not sure if it is a cause for concern or if it is related to fear of commitment, sticking to one person. Living with someone in this context is a complete new experience for both of us, even just living in my own house is a new experience. So with this new territory there is a lot to naturally and inevitably learn.
