08-11-2020, 08:17 PM
Overcoming Fear 5.75g.
-Breeze said this here
Quote:...I am restraining myself from making decisions on a whim, but I had a strong urge to quit alcohol. I ignored it for a couple of weeks, even had more drinks than usual during that time. But I have stopped enjoying it all together and made the decision to quit it three weeks ago. I've dealt amazingly well with the change so far, and now I am allowing myself to enjoy, have fun, and be free without the crutch of alcohol. I don't see myself going back to it, at least not in the near future.
I am much more vocal about my thoughts and opinions. And the best thing is, unlike before, it doesn't trigger fight or flight response. And when I do express my disagreement, it is not for the sake of proving myself to be an "alpha" or anything. I am growing to respect myself more and more, and as a result, I am also growing to respect others and providing them space to be themselves. They are not a threat to my identity and I don't need to respond with fear whatever comes my way. I've always been in the favor of a social sub, and I'd still pick it up if Shannon makes it, but I don't believe I need it anymore. Not if things continue the same way...
-Breeze said this here
