07-19-2020, 01:52 AM
I had headaches for full day for last couple of days. I took a break yesterday night.
Headache has reduced this morning. It could be an issue with volume. I play masked version at 75% in my mac. I will play with volume to see what suits me after next cycle, If i am not able to push through resistance.
I took an early break.. but i realised one major fears.
That is fear of confrontation and escalation. I realised, I exaggerate how conversations escalate during confrontation.
After realising that, I am able to confront people and point what they are doing.
(without fear in my mind of, how wildly things could get escalate.)
I am not a nice guy anymore.
I think, that is fear of no control over how conversations escalate.
I have realised multiple aspects about this and it might be hard to explain it here.
I am excited to test my new found understanding regarding this.
Its amazing to realise for how many year i was living with that fear.
Headache has reduced this morning. It could be an issue with volume. I play masked version at 75% in my mac. I will play with volume to see what suits me after next cycle, If i am not able to push through resistance.
I took an early break.. but i realised one major fears.
That is fear of confrontation and escalation. I realised, I exaggerate how conversations escalate during confrontation.
After realising that, I am able to confront people and point what they are doing.
(without fear in my mind of, how wildly things could get escalate.)
I am not a nice guy anymore.
I think, that is fear of no control over how conversations escalate.
I have realised multiple aspects about this and it might be hard to explain it here.
I am excited to test my new found understanding regarding this.
Its amazing to realise for how many year i was living with that fear.
