06-24-2020, 11:25 PM
4 nights... Changed to 12/15 clicks volume wise.
Haven't felt that strong urge to do my workouts this week, thinking it is because of the lobster like sun burn, the really hot heat and slight nausea I had yesterday, but I am wondering actually how much me working out is based in fear, and If it is, what does it look like without it?
Dreams
Still involving fear based stuff, another one included snakes again but I was able to avoid being bitten, and also being stung by scorpions. I had another where by me and my girlfriend were swimming in the sea and she wanted to swim out much further, but I didn't feel confident enough to do that. I think it was touching on fear of drowning (unless it was more metaphorical), as I can only swim breast stroke, so not exactly the strongest swimmer in the world. And I have had the same scenario in real life with different people about 6 years ago, where I had to turn back as my stamina was going, if I didn't I would of drowned.
Haven't felt that strong urge to do my workouts this week, thinking it is because of the lobster like sun burn, the really hot heat and slight nausea I had yesterday, but I am wondering actually how much me working out is based in fear, and If it is, what does it look like without it?
Dreams
Still involving fear based stuff, another one included snakes again but I was able to avoid being bitten, and also being stung by scorpions. I had another where by me and my girlfriend were swimming in the sea and she wanted to swim out much further, but I didn't feel confident enough to do that. I think it was touching on fear of drowning (unless it was more metaphorical), as I can only swim breast stroke, so not exactly the strongest swimmer in the world. And I have had the same scenario in real life with different people about 6 years ago, where I had to turn back as my stamina was going, if I didn't I would of drowned.
