Night 4
The only thing that stood out to me last night was that I had some mild anxiety in bed, and lie awake for nearly 45 minutes (no TV) after starting loops. My mind raced, thinking about past perceived failures, particularly related to relationships with clients. Mostly thoughts about instances where I did the right thing, but things didn't go my way and were ultimately out of my control. For whatever reason, I haven't fully forgiven myself for what I could not control, or let go of those situations. It took around 30 minutes of petting my cat and allowing her purr to calm me to be able to calm my mind and finally settle into sleep.
Dreams weren't nearly as freaky, and were related to me standing up for people and doing what's right, and then being appreciated for it. Interesting, especially after my runaway thought train revolving around the same material just before sleep.
Again, wanted to sleep in past my normal wake schedule. Been tired during the day, spending energy processing these fears, apparently.
The only thing that stood out to me last night was that I had some mild anxiety in bed, and lie awake for nearly 45 minutes (no TV) after starting loops. My mind raced, thinking about past perceived failures, particularly related to relationships with clients. Mostly thoughts about instances where I did the right thing, but things didn't go my way and were ultimately out of my control. For whatever reason, I haven't fully forgiven myself for what I could not control, or let go of those situations. It took around 30 minutes of petting my cat and allowing her purr to calm me to be able to calm my mind and finally settle into sleep.
Dreams weren't nearly as freaky, and were related to me standing up for people and doing what's right, and then being appreciated for it. Interesting, especially after my runaway thought train revolving around the same material just before sleep.
Again, wanted to sleep in past my normal wake schedule. Been tired during the day, spending energy processing these fears, apparently.
