DMSI 3.3.2, OED, X124, PSEv3, etc.

[rono]

Hi All (ongoing log of off-label experience of the DMSI 3.3.2),

Day 4 ASRB2 Cycle #9
Well, tonight (if my calculations are right) I will begin our 10th cycle of sub listening.


I think I'm seeing some effects of the sub, but want to write down some of them to get feedback (especially from  Shannon) to see if these are likely sub effects or I should attribute them to something else...

During these last 4 days of break from listening to the sub (ASRB2) the following have been happening:

• The occasional REALLY good night sleep
  
• High quality and highly motivated and very satisfying and relatively frequent sexual encounters with the wife. The intensity seems to be there AND gradually increasing. e.g. going after the second and third orgasms is much more frequent. Recently, I even wanted to go again briefly after the first round and I'm 64 years old....
  
• Sex drive has been soaring. Women I would not normally be attracted to (good looking but off-limits for good reasons) are generating sexual feelings in me simply by thinking about them or seeing them. Seems that this is what I remember from being a teenager/20-something.
  
• Have had sexual dreams a couple times in the last few days. One night it was kind of intense and vivid and repeated. Yet at the same time I was VERY tired and slept well (or thought I had)
  
• The wife has been upbeat, compliant, easily excited and extra-open to sex with me. Though she shows little sign of feeling or experiencing attraction with anyone else.
  
• Saturday am bj two weeks in a row... looks like it could become a welcome 'routine'
  
• Strange, uplifting, masculinely confident sexual feelings at random times
  
• Been able to begin tapering down my TRT doses by 20-30% without experiencing ill-effects like I used to
  
• other little things I can't mention or don't remember right now
  

Because of these things I think we'll continue on the DMSI 3.3.2 track for now. Though I'm anxious to try a couple other subs too.

I am thinking (since I don't really know what else is inside this thing), that the FRM is doing a lot of the heavy lifting. I think this because I believe a lot of the surging confidence and 'joy' in my masculinity is coming from reinforcing my values of not caring what people think of me. Not caring whether the wife is in a good mood or not-- a lot less. Just kind of assuming that I have something to offer everyone, not in a proud way, just in the opposite of being in a 'self defensive mode' mentally. Able to relax in the fact that the wife is highly sexual and needs me and my attention to be content and feel fulfilled. So when we have a spat (for instance) I can let go of it quickly and just treat her like the woman that she is and that she needs my attention. Not sure I'm making good sense here, but if you've had the experience I'm talking about you'll recognize it. These are directions I had already begun moving toward and decided were the way I wanted to be, I just was having trouble fully getting over the hump. The sub seems to have energized this process.

Have a great day! Here's to getting back out there socially soon so we can see what else this stuff can do!