04-27-2020, 04:05 PM
Day 9 now. Weekend was not very useful, relapsed a bunch but the pmohackbook encourages it until you finish reading so I didn't feel too guilty. Having some homosexual urges/fantasies which I'm pretty sure are caused by the hypno porn from a while back, I keep sometimes engaging with them to see if I really am attracted to it, and then sometimes I masturbate to women to reassure myself I'm attracted to them. To a degree I think I might enjoy bi stuff but for now while I recover I'm going to try and avoid engaging with those fantasies.
I've noticed after I do masturbate I feel less of a desire to look at porn, so I think the subliminals are still helping, but slowly. Now that I've gone through the trap of these fantasies a few times, and reassuring myself afterwards, I think it's just making me more anxious, so I will be avoiding trying to engage with them all together.
I've noticed after I do masturbate I feel less of a desire to look at porn, so I think the subliminals are still helping, but slowly. Now that I've gone through the trap of these fantasies a few times, and reassuring myself afterwards, I think it's just making me more anxious, so I will be avoiding trying to engage with them all together.
