Day 2 bloom
Feeling good. Having multiple moments of euphoria this morning, stress levels are way lower. Things look up strongly, its really fun and joyfull.
My body feels rough, there are moments the turmoil turns up a notch, and I have a suspicion itsall sub related. Its slightly different then the DOMS I get from back training in general.
Dad will visit me today. Back and forth mailing goes pretty smooth.
I handle my finances well. Im also resourcefull. Shit is way less put out of proportion, no end off the world shit, just realizing it aint all that much, at all. No fuzz. I feel wealth flowing through me and to me, and discover so many facets of wealth. So many angles. Amazing.
There are still some hangups I want to deal with, such as socially wise. Its like an offness, and each time it feels not really like myself, when it happens, like slipping insome autopilot state. I have reason now, as to see that I cut of influences, that this shift is pretty much happening right now. I mean, its like nofap, forced reboot to "get" it somewhere else.
With the free up that has happened, things go well actually. I realize how much damage I did to myself, how I was deteriorating amidst it all. I got panic attacks in the end, or atleast, dreading it and felt my heart sink at times when in their presence. I deserve so much better. I am enough.
It was all very forced, while, when the connection is organic, value exchange is benefitting for the whole. To me, I felt I was losing myself while being in that group. It was all pretty much fake, toxic, and a highway of ending up fucked. And it wouldve happen anyway in the end, sooo bite the bullet. Stop avoiding the pain, learn from it.
Things have changed, true colors have been shown, new perspectives opened themselves up to me. Im still gaining new insights, new strengths. Im feeling really good about it.
The OD stuff is reduced massively. UMS is amazing. Im very positive and hopefull for the future. Im realky thrilled to embark further on this.
Also, something huge has hapoened! I like collaboration! Like its actually so much fun to creative anew in the world, collab, deliver value and deliver fun. This truly shifted tons. Massive upside.
Love the bloom. UMS is solid.
There are still componements I have to handle, which could otherwise lead to higher levels of stress, something I want to prevent and aint necessary to begin with. Covering it beforehand so no unforseen fallout. To much slacking to my liking, things that I can easily do. Life can run so incredibly smooth.
Feeling good. Having multiple moments of euphoria this morning, stress levels are way lower. Things look up strongly, its really fun and joyfull.
My body feels rough, there are moments the turmoil turns up a notch, and I have a suspicion itsall sub related. Its slightly different then the DOMS I get from back training in general.
Dad will visit me today. Back and forth mailing goes pretty smooth.
I handle my finances well. Im also resourcefull. Shit is way less put out of proportion, no end off the world shit, just realizing it aint all that much, at all. No fuzz. I feel wealth flowing through me and to me, and discover so many facets of wealth. So many angles. Amazing.
There are still some hangups I want to deal with, such as socially wise. Its like an offness, and each time it feels not really like myself, when it happens, like slipping insome autopilot state. I have reason now, as to see that I cut of influences, that this shift is pretty much happening right now. I mean, its like nofap, forced reboot to "get" it somewhere else.
With the free up that has happened, things go well actually. I realize how much damage I did to myself, how I was deteriorating amidst it all. I got panic attacks in the end, or atleast, dreading it and felt my heart sink at times when in their presence. I deserve so much better. I am enough.
It was all very forced, while, when the connection is organic, value exchange is benefitting for the whole. To me, I felt I was losing myself while being in that group. It was all pretty much fake, toxic, and a highway of ending up fucked. And it wouldve happen anyway in the end, sooo bite the bullet. Stop avoiding the pain, learn from it.
Things have changed, true colors have been shown, new perspectives opened themselves up to me. Im still gaining new insights, new strengths. Im feeling really good about it.
The OD stuff is reduced massively. UMS is amazing. Im very positive and hopefull for the future. Im realky thrilled to embark further on this.
Also, something huge has hapoened! I like collaboration! Like its actually so much fun to creative anew in the world, collab, deliver value and deliver fun. This truly shifted tons. Massive upside.
Love the bloom. UMS is solid.
There are still componements I have to handle, which could otherwise lead to higher levels of stress, something I want to prevent and aint necessary to begin with. Covering it beforehand so no unforseen fallout. To much slacking to my liking, things that I can easily do. Life can run so incredibly smooth.
