Even tho im feeling like im dying internally atm, im weirdly optimistic knowing we come through this. Its like finding myself back somewhat, getting back in tune with myself.
I feel im processing a shitton of stuff. Fear pangs, worries, anxiety, feeling as if im losing it, there are times I wanna cry, to give up, feeling all kind of things, yet...im optimistic and hopefull.
Its raw trauma, I see that now. Like a member wrote "e3 attacks my traumas and rips them out" i like that approach. I think healing is really agressive at times and intense. Like drill sgt bootcamp. Might also explain I have a streak goin, in a positive light I seem to heal my connection with the universe, some very deep changes, first time off lots of bad luck. Deep healing feels like working out a relationship, with even myself. ( WHAT?! This is great!) Its all included. Its like kink in the roads, right in front of me. And it is funny how it is reframing. I find my joy back right here and now.
Last loop was last night. 1 loop. Nothing more. I also got some nice UMS insights coming to me today. The moments that my vision was utterly clear and feelin solid as heck, like ums takes over.
Edit: I saw what ums accomplishes today. Like clear vision. Beautiful.
I feel really well off like a reality claims the new "normal" simultaneously the concept of normal sets me in contrast, free. Like im accelerating abundantly.
Edit2: ums guides me to the root. Thats beyond neat.
I feel im processing a shitton of stuff. Fear pangs, worries, anxiety, feeling as if im losing it, there are times I wanna cry, to give up, feeling all kind of things, yet...im optimistic and hopefull.
Its raw trauma, I see that now. Like a member wrote "e3 attacks my traumas and rips them out" i like that approach. I think healing is really agressive at times and intense. Like drill sgt bootcamp. Might also explain I have a streak goin, in a positive light I seem to heal my connection with the universe, some very deep changes, first time off lots of bad luck. Deep healing feels like working out a relationship, with even myself. ( WHAT?! This is great!) Its all included. Its like kink in the roads, right in front of me. And it is funny how it is reframing. I find my joy back right here and now.
Last loop was last night. 1 loop. Nothing more. I also got some nice UMS insights coming to me today. The moments that my vision was utterly clear and feelin solid as heck, like ums takes over.
Edit: I saw what ums accomplishes today. Like clear vision. Beautiful.
I feel really well off like a reality claims the new "normal" simultaneously the concept of normal sets me in contrast, free. Like im accelerating abundantly.
Edit2: ums guides me to the root. Thats beyond neat.
