02-11-2020, 10:50 AM
Bloom day 1 ( ran 5 loops over night, clear nagging that I should, yet recalling tgis, the same "5 loops" nudge is voicing itself )
Having mad mindfog. Sleepy yet stable mood. Moment I consider early bed I cant move as if im locked in autopilot.
Anyways;
Had appointment today with my psych. Drank some coffee beforehand, 2 other people joined. One woman who is specialized in addictions ( lol at the timing ) and a guy who was taking the place of the other woman that was sick today.
We talked about stuff. Introductions took place. I engaged everyone pretty nicely. Then we went over the growth over the past year. "L'", who is my to go person/casemanager, nice ass and what not, was all happy and stuff. Cool.
Then... I brought up my quitting of smoking, aswell as other substances that causes dopamine release. I locked eyes with L at some points, without me wavering the engagement. I coined also, and let me phrase "I am quitting smoking, yet also 18+ sites, and other stimulances that cause a dopamine release" she asked further. Before I knew I was talking about nofap, openly, how quitting porn is beneficial, and is boosting my life positively in numerous fields, such as socializing, leadership and what not.
In these moments we held eye contact, longer then whats considering norm and it was very much a relaxed gaze. Her bodylanguage shifted and slipped composure. Got great feedback from everyone in the room. It was pretty nice.
And here I am, wondering what DMSI will do to her lol.
Things are obvious today. I notice some great shifts taking place. Mood is up, humor is great. Hunger is massive. My attitude to things is changing, aswellas internals keep changing, like my character.
Im having moments that I feel how things were obvious the whole time and am just coming to terms today with it. Like the glimpses take time and now I feel, because its so obvious, what the heck was I doing ;_;
Having mad mindfog. Sleepy yet stable mood. Moment I consider early bed I cant move as if im locked in autopilot.
Anyways;
Had appointment today with my psych. Drank some coffee beforehand, 2 other people joined. One woman who is specialized in addictions ( lol at the timing ) and a guy who was taking the place of the other woman that was sick today.
We talked about stuff. Introductions took place. I engaged everyone pretty nicely. Then we went over the growth over the past year. "L'", who is my to go person/casemanager, nice ass and what not, was all happy and stuff. Cool.
Then... I brought up my quitting of smoking, aswell as other substances that causes dopamine release. I locked eyes with L at some points, without me wavering the engagement. I coined also, and let me phrase "I am quitting smoking, yet also 18+ sites, and other stimulances that cause a dopamine release" she asked further. Before I knew I was talking about nofap, openly, how quitting porn is beneficial, and is boosting my life positively in numerous fields, such as socializing, leadership and what not.
In these moments we held eye contact, longer then whats considering norm and it was very much a relaxed gaze. Her bodylanguage shifted and slipped composure. Got great feedback from everyone in the room. It was pretty nice.
And here I am, wondering what DMSI will do to her lol.
Things are obvious today. I notice some great shifts taking place. Mood is up, humor is great. Hunger is massive. My attitude to things is changing, aswellas internals keep changing, like my character.
Im having moments that I feel how things were obvious the whole time and am just coming to terms today with it. Like the glimpses take time and now I feel, because its so obvious, what the heck was I doing ;_;
