02-08-2020, 04:40 AM
Lolololol
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Running loops as I write this. Decided to go all out. Whatever is being stubborn in my subconscious has to go. Im pretty much fed up/frustrated. Yet the last couple of days, no matter what I do, feels like "to much effort" also the message "it has to be way more easy"
I also read that obvious results might show up after 6 months, which I helief to be correct. Yesterday I was thinking how people go to US/LM 3 or jump ship, take a break. I got the message to keep running ums, like I had a tipping point and moment of clarity. I felt results ramp up, atleast, paradigm shifting wise, the longer I run UMS, the better it will be. I run UMS for a reason. I will stick to it.
Just the amount of shit at times to work through feels huge. Considering my upbring and the beliefs that come with it, that makes sense.
Also, am starting to realize selfpunishing patterns going on. Like sort of self-gaslighting. Working through some insecurities aswell regarding people, which manifest in wonkiness, awkwardness and general scenario thinking. Subtle, but its there. Guess ums touches on trauma, which has shown itself as a "smear" its like smeared out over the years. Its like a pattern. The insecurities also surround women. Was pretty clear when that shit came to the surface.
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Running loops as I write this. Decided to go all out. Whatever is being stubborn in my subconscious has to go. Im pretty much fed up/frustrated. Yet the last couple of days, no matter what I do, feels like "to much effort" also the message "it has to be way more easy"
I also read that obvious results might show up after 6 months, which I helief to be correct. Yesterday I was thinking how people go to US/LM 3 or jump ship, take a break. I got the message to keep running ums, like I had a tipping point and moment of clarity. I felt results ramp up, atleast, paradigm shifting wise, the longer I run UMS, the better it will be. I run UMS for a reason. I will stick to it.
Just the amount of shit at times to work through feels huge. Considering my upbring and the beliefs that come with it, that makes sense.
Also, am starting to realize selfpunishing patterns going on. Like sort of self-gaslighting. Working through some insecurities aswell regarding people, which manifest in wonkiness, awkwardness and general scenario thinking. Subtle, but its there. Guess ums touches on trauma, which has shown itself as a "smear" its like smeared out over the years. Its like a pattern. The insecurities also surround women. Was pretty clear when that shit came to the surface.
