Day 4 bloom
Last night before bed, I felt ums dominating my mind. It was amazing. At the same time my solar plexus went wonky. I recognized fear pulling up and recognized frm being active in that place. It was panicky yet I decided not to run loops. Even today when I ask "should I?" I get a resounding no. Socially Im becoming more dominant, yet I flip and am sometimes simultaneously depressed. Its just an feeling of "ughhh", an sensation. Also, less sleep last night, which seems to be more common as I run this sub ( even on off-days)
My frame becomes more solid, im recognizing some patterns revolving around "i give you the benefit of the doubt" this translates itself in "giving the opinions of others to much of a consideration" its pure self investment of what I(!) want, no matter the others. Im my main investment and asset, not other people. Sometimes its subtle. Its also fear. To much of an giving a fuck what other people think. The women at work are way more supplicating. One woman in the mastermind group becomes increasingly flirty. Im completely comfortable and strong in my frame. Like an airport navigator/ceo position. Raport building with other people is more respectfull from their side.
Im cutting down on time. It can be more quick and to the point, and I refuse to tolerate excuses. I refuse slacking aswell, and am very strict. This results in confrontations with those not on this grind. I directly bring up solutions, dont accept the "oh tomorrow" or anything else. The tacticle shit so to say. Especially when it can be covered instantly and there is no reason to put it off.
My hunger is up today. Like, high no matter what I eat, like a black hole. I also find myself wanting to cut out sugars. Ive done keto before, it satisfies my hunger, but I can make better food choices.
I used to watch asmr before bed. Now im straight up going to sleep. Nofap going strong. Its like im getting back to life. Its like utter timewaste.
Last night before bed, I felt ums dominating my mind. It was amazing. At the same time my solar plexus went wonky. I recognized fear pulling up and recognized frm being active in that place. It was panicky yet I decided not to run loops. Even today when I ask "should I?" I get a resounding no. Socially Im becoming more dominant, yet I flip and am sometimes simultaneously depressed. Its just an feeling of "ughhh", an sensation. Also, less sleep last night, which seems to be more common as I run this sub ( even on off-days)
My frame becomes more solid, im recognizing some patterns revolving around "i give you the benefit of the doubt" this translates itself in "giving the opinions of others to much of a consideration" its pure self investment of what I(!) want, no matter the others. Im my main investment and asset, not other people. Sometimes its subtle. Its also fear. To much of an giving a fuck what other people think. The women at work are way more supplicating. One woman in the mastermind group becomes increasingly flirty. Im completely comfortable and strong in my frame. Like an airport navigator/ceo position. Raport building with other people is more respectfull from their side.
Im cutting down on time. It can be more quick and to the point, and I refuse to tolerate excuses. I refuse slacking aswell, and am very strict. This results in confrontations with those not on this grind. I directly bring up solutions, dont accept the "oh tomorrow" or anything else. The tacticle shit so to say. Especially when it can be covered instantly and there is no reason to put it off.
My hunger is up today. Like, high no matter what I eat, like a black hole. I also find myself wanting to cut out sugars. Ive done keto before, it satisfies my hunger, but I can make better food choices.
I used to watch asmr before bed. Now im straight up going to sleep. Nofap going strong. Its like im getting back to life. Its like utter timewaste.
