01-25-2020, 03:07 PM
Now I feel like I'm morphing into a new identity which I'm not entirely sure what it is yet. The old self is being eroded and it's painful. My ego is saying NOOO! Stop whatever your doing right now!! It's uncomfortable. A part of me is dying...
UMS is working through the deeper layers of my psyche. I can feel it.
Soon, my ego won't have a choice but to accept this newer version of "me". It's only a matter of time. I experienced the exact same transition during the onset phase of LTU. Seems like I'm reliving it.
The truth is, we like to think that we have a self to begin with. But this is an illusion I have seen through before. There is no self. It's a flimsy construction we have created since we were a child.
I experienced a temporary loss of self while running yesterday and the same thing happened again while in bed that night. I haven't been meditating at all for a while so this caught me by surprise indeed.
An outsider will probably think I'm delluded lol. I don't blame em. Society is sheer ignorance. I also want to admit that I'm ignorant too. It's just a matter of "to what extent" are we ignorant as individuals. No point putting a finger on others. We should point it back at ourselves and self-reflect. That's where the real growth happens.
When using these subliminals the concept of polymorphism comes to mind because essentially we are doing just that; re-shaping our identity into whatever form we desire. Thats exactly why we resist and the process feels uncomfortable.
I don't know if 6g will make this process any less uncomfortable but I sure hope it will and Shannon seems to be on the right track. I wish I could help him.
So yeah, I'm happy that I made it through this week coz it was tough once again.
I'm really not sure about the frequency of usage. I'm going to stick with my gut feeling on this one. I get the sense that most people here are equally confused, especially with the newer subs.
Let's do 3 loops tonight and tomorrow baby!!
UMS is working through the deeper layers of my psyche. I can feel it.
Soon, my ego won't have a choice but to accept this newer version of "me". It's only a matter of time. I experienced the exact same transition during the onset phase of LTU. Seems like I'm reliving it.
The truth is, we like to think that we have a self to begin with. But this is an illusion I have seen through before. There is no self. It's a flimsy construction we have created since we were a child.
I experienced a temporary loss of self while running yesterday and the same thing happened again while in bed that night. I haven't been meditating at all for a while so this caught me by surprise indeed.
An outsider will probably think I'm delluded lol. I don't blame em. Society is sheer ignorance. I also want to admit that I'm ignorant too. It's just a matter of "to what extent" are we ignorant as individuals. No point putting a finger on others. We should point it back at ourselves and self-reflect. That's where the real growth happens.
When using these subliminals the concept of polymorphism comes to mind because essentially we are doing just that; re-shaping our identity into whatever form we desire. Thats exactly why we resist and the process feels uncomfortable.
I don't know if 6g will make this process any less uncomfortable but I sure hope it will and Shannon seems to be on the right track. I wish I could help him.
So yeah, I'm happy that I made it through this week coz it was tough once again.
I'm really not sure about the frequency of usage. I'm going to stick with my gut feeling on this one. I get the sense that most people here are equally confused, especially with the newer subs.
Let's do 3 loops tonight and tomorrow baby!!
