01-22-2020, 10:45 AM
Hi All (DMSI 3.3.2 off-label experiment continues),
Day 5 continued:
So this afternoon I had a haircut appointment in keeping with my plan to get out and have some social contact with relative strangers each day.
I had my haircut once by this young lady once a couple months ago, but we got along, she confided many personal issues with me about her failed marriage and family issues on our first appt.
This time I went in and she seemed a little unusually reserved. Turns out, I was only her second appt of the day so she was probably just 'warming up' still. However, she opened up again and showed some signs of being more responsive to me physically. Standing a little closer, taking her time while cutting the hair, maybe with a little more flair, subtle but noticeable. Her verbal got playful toward the end. At the end of the haircut, though, this place always has the stylist use a hand vibrator give you a shoulder massage. She didn't just do my neck and shoulders but let her hand slide down to the outside of my delts, never had one of the stylists do this part before, it was always the upper shoulder not the outside of the deltoid. Also, she let her hand with the vibrator just stay there on my shoulder for longer than one would expect, then she did it on the other side as well, so it wasn't a mistake. This is one of the sort of the things I was hoping would happen. Improved, warmer service from people I come into contact with.
I usually get decent response from female vendors (shop keepers, waitresses, etc.) ever since I did my Alpha transformation about 15 years ago. But this is a welcome improvement. I attribute this to the sub, but up to Shannon to call it.
One of my daughters (in her 30s) and my m-i-l (in her late 80s) were over last night. Both responded warmly to me as usual, maybe more warmly, hard to say. I felt more confident and relaxed even though I am usually relaxed with them, I just felt more patient, warm but less easily bothered by details.
Day 6:
Very sexy feelings in my body during the night. Wife warm and cuddly, perhaps a little more than usual. Again, I didn't need any blanket all night--even my wife didn't need a blanket for a large part of the night. Woke up wonderfully horny and attracted to my wife. It was not a good am for sex (had to be at a 7am mtg) so I wasn't going there, but would have felt great. I actually spoke very sexually and boldly. So boldly that I actually got a little resistant reaction to my suggestion from her. She does this sometimes but hasn't for quite a while. I was taken aback and made me thoughtful about whether I should change my approach, etc. A few minutes later she apologized and gave me a very warm hug and kiss as we were doing our 'ablutions'. So, I attribute that to 1) me being less fearful and more sexually bold (I will need to watch this, because I usually say what I'm thinking anyway...); 2) Her feeling stronger attraction to me than she is used to and trying out a resistant reaction. She didn't like the way it felt and turned it around fairly quickly when she realized that.
Today, I'll be going by my doctor's office and I'll do a little business/paperwork with the receptionist. It will be interesting to see how she reacts. She's under a lot of pressure right now for business issues. But in our email exchange this morning, she seemed unusually warm. Just a little, like she was actually looking a little forward to me coming by. Will report later or tomorrow.
So far today, I've pretty much listened to 4 loops so far mostly back to back. First two loops were silent and the second two were Hybrid.
@Shannon
How important is it to have NO gaps in the listening?
e.g. if I get a phone call and I was listening to the loop on my phone does that mean I need to start over or just resume where I left off? Should I roll back and pick up a couple minutes before the interruption?
If I need to switch devices from one I'm using at my desk to my phone and I'm in the middle of a loop, does it do any harm to more-or-less switch to where I left off on the new device?
Day 5 continued:
So this afternoon I had a haircut appointment in keeping with my plan to get out and have some social contact with relative strangers each day.
I had my haircut once by this young lady once a couple months ago, but we got along, she confided many personal issues with me about her failed marriage and family issues on our first appt.
This time I went in and she seemed a little unusually reserved. Turns out, I was only her second appt of the day so she was probably just 'warming up' still. However, she opened up again and showed some signs of being more responsive to me physically. Standing a little closer, taking her time while cutting the hair, maybe with a little more flair, subtle but noticeable. Her verbal got playful toward the end. At the end of the haircut, though, this place always has the stylist use a hand vibrator give you a shoulder massage. She didn't just do my neck and shoulders but let her hand slide down to the outside of my delts, never had one of the stylists do this part before, it was always the upper shoulder not the outside of the deltoid. Also, she let her hand with the vibrator just stay there on my shoulder for longer than one would expect, then she did it on the other side as well, so it wasn't a mistake. This is one of the sort of the things I was hoping would happen. Improved, warmer service from people I come into contact with.
I usually get decent response from female vendors (shop keepers, waitresses, etc.) ever since I did my Alpha transformation about 15 years ago. But this is a welcome improvement. I attribute this to the sub, but up to Shannon to call it.
One of my daughters (in her 30s) and my m-i-l (in her late 80s) were over last night. Both responded warmly to me as usual, maybe more warmly, hard to say. I felt more confident and relaxed even though I am usually relaxed with them, I just felt more patient, warm but less easily bothered by details.
Day 6:
Very sexy feelings in my body during the night. Wife warm and cuddly, perhaps a little more than usual. Again, I didn't need any blanket all night--even my wife didn't need a blanket for a large part of the night. Woke up wonderfully horny and attracted to my wife. It was not a good am for sex (had to be at a 7am mtg) so I wasn't going there, but would have felt great. I actually spoke very sexually and boldly. So boldly that I actually got a little resistant reaction to my suggestion from her. She does this sometimes but hasn't for quite a while. I was taken aback and made me thoughtful about whether I should change my approach, etc. A few minutes later she apologized and gave me a very warm hug and kiss as we were doing our 'ablutions'. So, I attribute that to 1) me being less fearful and more sexually bold (I will need to watch this, because I usually say what I'm thinking anyway...); 2) Her feeling stronger attraction to me than she is used to and trying out a resistant reaction. She didn't like the way it felt and turned it around fairly quickly when she realized that.
Today, I'll be going by my doctor's office and I'll do a little business/paperwork with the receptionist. It will be interesting to see how she reacts. She's under a lot of pressure right now for business issues. But in our email exchange this morning, she seemed unusually warm. Just a little, like she was actually looking a little forward to me coming by. Will report later or tomorrow.
So far today, I've pretty much listened to 4 loops so far mostly back to back. First two loops were silent and the second two were Hybrid.
@Shannon
How important is it to have NO gaps in the listening?
e.g. if I get a phone call and I was listening to the loop on my phone does that mean I need to start over or just resume where I left off? Should I roll back and pick up a couple minutes before the interruption?
If I need to switch devices from one I'm using at my desk to my phone and I'm in the middle of a loop, does it do any harm to more-or-less switch to where I left off on the new device?
