01-21-2020, 11:36 AM
Hi All -- journal continues...
I had written a draft of what happened yesterday but today I can't find it. Oh well, this will be short.
Day 4 continued
Had a massage at my usual place, but as luck would have it had a new therapist so no baseline to go off of, but she definitely responded more warmly to me than any previous therapist on our first meeting. However, that could be personality. I did observe a couple things that I thought were interesting:
1) I started a conversation in a way that was pretty cool, but did not sound like me - made me think maybe the program had affected my interpersonal style, but it wasn't particularly flirty or anything. Hard to put into words.
2) I was ticklish in my feet, something I had not experienced for decades. Am I more in touch with my body? Is it more responsive to touch? Is it bec of the program? Don't know what to do with this one. I'm simply not ticklish but lo and behold there it was. Really surprised me.
Re my wife... she was out of the house the whole day so very little exposure to the subliminal. She had an hour or so in the evening. She did complain of 'unusual tiredness' but she says that a lot, hard to sort whether it's the sub or not.
Slept poorly - or at least it felt that way. Felt hot during the night, but not sure what might have caused that. Eventually, we both were just using a sheet on a winter's night with the a/c running to make sure the temp didn't go much above 67 degrees... Is the sub increasing our metabolisms?
Day 5 part 1
She was very 'in the mood' this am. Had a very enthusiastic time together before the lights even came on pre-6am. It felt differently in that she seemed somewhat more comfortable with her sexuality and needs. I didn't need to remind her she 'needed it' (something I usually keep track of for her) I offered her some and she responded enthusiastically. A good time was had by all. Her oral skills continue to improve. I think this comes from a combination of slight increase in my attractiveness coupled with increased confidence on her side. This latter is one of the reasons I decided to experiment with exposing her to the sub since Shannon had warned that sometimes the other person starts to feel insecure in the presence of the person running DMSI 3.3.2--something I really did NOT want for her.
Maybe more later. There will be kids in the house most of the day, so while I'm currently listening to the Hybrid ocean on headphones, she won't be getting much exposure during the day, I'll play it in the background tonight during dinner (again this is an off-label use, I know and am keeping a vigilant eye out for unwanted effects).
btw: I find the Hybrid 'stronger' I feel it more in the moment. Hard to describe, but it has more 'push' and 'pull' hopefully it will speed the effects.
I am going to see if I can find ways to be out-and-about having contact with people on a daily basis, but that doesn't fit easily with my remote working from home.
Cheers!
I had written a draft of what happened yesterday but today I can't find it. Oh well, this will be short.
Day 4 continued
Had a massage at my usual place, but as luck would have it had a new therapist so no baseline to go off of, but she definitely responded more warmly to me than any previous therapist on our first meeting. However, that could be personality. I did observe a couple things that I thought were interesting:
1) I started a conversation in a way that was pretty cool, but did not sound like me - made me think maybe the program had affected my interpersonal style, but it wasn't particularly flirty or anything. Hard to put into words.
2) I was ticklish in my feet, something I had not experienced for decades. Am I more in touch with my body? Is it more responsive to touch? Is it bec of the program? Don't know what to do with this one. I'm simply not ticklish but lo and behold there it was. Really surprised me.
Re my wife... she was out of the house the whole day so very little exposure to the subliminal. She had an hour or so in the evening. She did complain of 'unusual tiredness' but she says that a lot, hard to sort whether it's the sub or not.
Slept poorly - or at least it felt that way. Felt hot during the night, but not sure what might have caused that. Eventually, we both were just using a sheet on a winter's night with the a/c running to make sure the temp didn't go much above 67 degrees... Is the sub increasing our metabolisms?
Day 5 part 1
She was very 'in the mood' this am. Had a very enthusiastic time together before the lights even came on pre-6am. It felt differently in that she seemed somewhat more comfortable with her sexuality and needs. I didn't need to remind her she 'needed it' (something I usually keep track of for her) I offered her some and she responded enthusiastically. A good time was had by all. Her oral skills continue to improve. I think this comes from a combination of slight increase in my attractiveness coupled with increased confidence on her side. This latter is one of the reasons I decided to experiment with exposing her to the sub since Shannon had warned that sometimes the other person starts to feel insecure in the presence of the person running DMSI 3.3.2--something I really did NOT want for her.
Maybe more later. There will be kids in the house most of the day, so while I'm currently listening to the Hybrid ocean on headphones, she won't be getting much exposure during the day, I'll play it in the background tonight during dinner (again this is an off-label use, I know and am keeping a vigilant eye out for unwanted effects).
btw: I find the Hybrid 'stronger' I feel it more in the moment. Hard to describe, but it has more 'push' and 'pull' hopefully it will speed the effects.
I am going to see if I can find ways to be out-and-about having contact with people on a daily basis, but that doesn't fit easily with my remote working from home.
Cheers!
