The bipolair like turmoil lately is coming to an end. Im so done with all the powerlessness, the dissapointment, the whole internal chaos and thug war, the depression and inconsistency and falling apart that I have to let it all out. I feel hurt. Destroyed. Blamy and victim like. Im running this sub for months now, with peaks, only to have it fall down aswell. The resistance is straight up bullshit. Im done waiting for results and what not.
Im legitly hurting. So fucking done. I can go all cozy and what not to this, acceptance and lovy dovy, but still, the whole avoidance pattern, becuz "honoes i might manifest that" is fucking bullshit. Im feeling it even goddamn physical. It solves nothing. Yeah, redirecting the focus is one thing, another is feeling it, i just dont get how this shit ever benefits. There is literally nothing to be afraid for, only to look forward to. Im done accepting and what not. Kill this motherfucking resistant bullshit. Im fucking done having night terrors and appreciating feels like a goddamn scam at times.
Fuck you resistance. Fuck you. Go fuck yourself. I really dont give a flying fuck if some parts of me are scared. Im done. Really so fucking done with all of it. I vent as long as needed till the tank runs empty. This is ums. THIS.
Its like im havibg high days, flow states if effortlessness and how immense the manifestation flow is, but ill keep be pulled back, down into the fucking bullshit like some hands grab my state and drag down. Im done. Im furious. I hate all of it. I dont give a flying fuck about the reason or nah.
Lots of reasons pop up, yet im to fucking pissed to even give a fuck.
Leave me the fuck alone.
Im legitly hurting. So fucking done. I can go all cozy and what not to this, acceptance and lovy dovy, but still, the whole avoidance pattern, becuz "honoes i might manifest that" is fucking bullshit. Im feeling it even goddamn physical. It solves nothing. Yeah, redirecting the focus is one thing, another is feeling it, i just dont get how this shit ever benefits. There is literally nothing to be afraid for, only to look forward to. Im done accepting and what not. Kill this motherfucking resistant bullshit. Im fucking done having night terrors and appreciating feels like a goddamn scam at times.
Fuck you resistance. Fuck you. Go fuck yourself. I really dont give a flying fuck if some parts of me are scared. Im done. Really so fucking done with all of it. I vent as long as needed till the tank runs empty. This is ums. THIS.
Its like im havibg high days, flow states if effortlessness and how immense the manifestation flow is, but ill keep be pulled back, down into the fucking bullshit like some hands grab my state and drag down. Im done. Im furious. I hate all of it. I dont give a flying fuck about the reason or nah.
Lots of reasons pop up, yet im to fucking pissed to even give a fuck.
Leave me the fuck alone.
