Started 5 day bloom today
All kind of stuff is coming to the forefront. Some serious anxiety spike this morning. Part of me seems to fight tooth and nail about letting go. Its the same old pattern persisting. Un flipping between selfsabotage, triggered doom as a response to an pattern, depressive feelings, hopelessness, old voicings and what not, an highly effective money multiply vision.
Its rough as I write this. Facing the raw patterns exactly as it is. I now see how im revisiting over and over again, which is pretty interesting.
Lately execution happens more and more. Like im ending a process and to close a book.
There is also some strong E3 going on. Externals at times are pretty "funky". Like, sort of dreamy and surreal, as if im amudst some huge shift. Also healing between me and what I call, source.
Im also realizing how all is an inside job. I mean, the numbers in my bankaccount change, financially I have enough and even more, yet, my internals, nothing changes. There is nothing to fear tho. I mean, I got all the resources. The whole fear thing is dying off. What I notice is slmost black and white, to the point that, when this hapoens, its like an inner underestimation. It leaves you weak, for a moment.
All of this leaves clues. This makes it such an awesome trip and an oppurtunity to heal and deal. Its like this fishing thing that no matter what, is staying at the surface, no pressure can hold it down. It can be pushed down, yet it resurfaces. This grows dominant.
People acting way more "serving". Lots of engagement, thank you's, interactions. As I write this, im amazed by the changes and shifts taking place. Its like these things that cause an "adjustment" of thought and approach.
Admitting some things, such as no money manifesting, directly lays barren the clue. Jelousy. Comparison.
Anyway, 5 day bloom time since today.
Edit; it all seems to line up. Internally im still goin ham. Something is there. Im also having a hard time by visioning my goals. Still i feel im at the cusp. Guess e3 is gojng hard aswell. Another thing is; it happens as it happens. Ums is revealing tons to me.
All kind of stuff is coming to the forefront. Some serious anxiety spike this morning. Part of me seems to fight tooth and nail about letting go. Its the same old pattern persisting. Un flipping between selfsabotage, triggered doom as a response to an pattern, depressive feelings, hopelessness, old voicings and what not, an highly effective money multiply vision.
Its rough as I write this. Facing the raw patterns exactly as it is. I now see how im revisiting over and over again, which is pretty interesting.
Lately execution happens more and more. Like im ending a process and to close a book.
There is also some strong E3 going on. Externals at times are pretty "funky". Like, sort of dreamy and surreal, as if im amudst some huge shift. Also healing between me and what I call, source.
Im also realizing how all is an inside job. I mean, the numbers in my bankaccount change, financially I have enough and even more, yet, my internals, nothing changes. There is nothing to fear tho. I mean, I got all the resources. The whole fear thing is dying off. What I notice is slmost black and white, to the point that, when this hapoens, its like an inner underestimation. It leaves you weak, for a moment.
All of this leaves clues. This makes it such an awesome trip and an oppurtunity to heal and deal. Its like this fishing thing that no matter what, is staying at the surface, no pressure can hold it down. It can be pushed down, yet it resurfaces. This grows dominant.
People acting way more "serving". Lots of engagement, thank you's, interactions. As I write this, im amazed by the changes and shifts taking place. Its like these things that cause an "adjustment" of thought and approach.
Admitting some things, such as no money manifesting, directly lays barren the clue. Jelousy. Comparison.
Anyway, 5 day bloom time since today.
Edit; it all seems to line up. Internally im still goin ham. Something is there. Im also having a hard time by visioning my goals. Still i feel im at the cusp. Guess e3 is gojng hard aswell. Another thing is; it happens as it happens. Ums is revealing tons to me.
