11-10-2019, 09:52 PM
ME: I still have the incredible sense of clearness in my mind. It’s not as noticeable now because it’s starting to feel like my normal. I had the feeling that I wasn’t done quite yet, and the next step just occurred to me. I’ve spent the last few weeks spelunking in my subconscious, and I’ve found the root of the fear that caused all of this dysfunctional behavior and thinking that’s kept me from having the life that I should be having right now. I proved to myself that it’s all based on BS. To be honest with you all, I kind of expected it all to just go away and functional habits and thinking to replace them as soon as I did what I just did. Not quite. The mental habits are still there even though they really don’t have the emotional force of that unknown fear behind them. I have been in graining the patterns in my mind for many years though, so they didn’t just disappear. It’s also a lot easier to spot them, they stick out like a sore thumb in my mind. I know exactly why I’m doing them as I do them, and I know what stacked set of self lies they’re based on.
All I have to do now is spot them, call myself out on them, and replace them with a thought pattern or behavior that I actually want to have.
I have to watch for:
- Those anger fantasy episodes. I’ve been doing a pretty good job on that. I just have to keep explaining it to myself when it happens.
- Shying away from doing things that would lead me away from success. I will also have to realize that any of the excuses I make for avoiding what I need to do are BS.
- Ignoring problems that might become bigger problems. Take care of them as soon as possible, and get the real info on it as soon as I have an inkeling that there is a problem.
- “Down” thought patterns such as dwelling on negative potential outcomes in the future.
There are probably more, but those are the major categories.
I don’t know what effect this all will have on the purely subconscious things that this program does such as manifestation, but I can only do what I can do.
This was a major turning point, and an upward spiral has begun.
All I have to do now is spot them, call myself out on them, and replace them with a thought pattern or behavior that I actually want to have.
I have to watch for:
- Those anger fantasy episodes. I’ve been doing a pretty good job on that. I just have to keep explaining it to myself when it happens.
- Shying away from doing things that would lead me away from success. I will also have to realize that any of the excuses I make for avoiding what I need to do are BS.
- Ignoring problems that might become bigger problems. Take care of them as soon as possible, and get the real info on it as soon as I have an inkeling that there is a problem.
- “Down” thought patterns such as dwelling on negative potential outcomes in the future.
There are probably more, but those are the major categories.
I don’t know what effect this all will have on the purely subconscious things that this program does such as manifestation, but I can only do what I can do.
This was a major turning point, and an upward spiral has begun.
