07-06-2012, 11:36 AM
Ok so an update. I'm feeling better. I had one of those downward swings and now I feel like I'm back up and my future isn't looking so doom and gloom. Once again I've realized to take what the sub gives me and stop expecting certain things. I'm no expert on subliminals, but I know for certain that one thing isn't going to tackle all my problems. I kind of see it like a mass of things inside my head that I need to separate and deal with accordingly.
So what I've learned these past few days. I believe the biggest negativity I've removed has to do with my own perception of myself. For a large part of my life I dealt with social anxiety and this led me to feeling like I was a failure or less of a person. I've managed to understand that it isn't my fault, but I do have to take responsibility for it. And I am taking responsibility, so I shouldn't be so hard on myself. It's unfortunate that I do have issues in my life, but it doesn't make me any less of a person. This alone has raised my self-esteem dramatically and made me realize how much negativity I held against myself.
Also my negativity towards others is gone as well. Which I think was more projecting my own problems out into the world. I've learned to ignore or not waste my mental energy on those individuals that are less mature. Whereas before I felt threatened, now I understand it wasn't me, but their own negativity or lack of regard for others. No matter how great a person you are there will always be someone there to judge you, criticize you, or behave negatively towards you. It's just learning and internalizing that their opinions don't matter and you shouldn't take them to heart.
But like I said, so far this sub hasn't tackled everything and I don't expect it to. I feel it has done its job in removing negativity about myself so far. But my anxiety around others is another issue that I have to deal with. So far I see an abundance of my insecurities and problems with myself were directly related to my social anxiety and how it stunted my growth as a person. So I believe that that is a job for another sub, possibly alpha 5.0 when I get the money. But in the meantime after I finish up this sub I might try out absolute self confidence.
One more thing. With the removal of negativity I've felt aspects of alpha have actually resurfaced again. It's like I did change, but then I covered it up with mud in the form of negative beliefs. Now I'm removing that mud and my previously improved state is returning. Most notably my ability to stand by my opinions and do what I feel is right. Especially when there is so much talk out there how subliminals don't really change a person at the core or are a band aid solution. Those that don't believe in the subconscious mind or subliminals, well that's their loss. I'm willing to explore my options and use that works. I find that we all take different paths, but eventually end up at the same destination.
So what I've learned these past few days. I believe the biggest negativity I've removed has to do with my own perception of myself. For a large part of my life I dealt with social anxiety and this led me to feeling like I was a failure or less of a person. I've managed to understand that it isn't my fault, but I do have to take responsibility for it. And I am taking responsibility, so I shouldn't be so hard on myself. It's unfortunate that I do have issues in my life, but it doesn't make me any less of a person. This alone has raised my self-esteem dramatically and made me realize how much negativity I held against myself.
Also my negativity towards others is gone as well. Which I think was more projecting my own problems out into the world. I've learned to ignore or not waste my mental energy on those individuals that are less mature. Whereas before I felt threatened, now I understand it wasn't me, but their own negativity or lack of regard for others. No matter how great a person you are there will always be someone there to judge you, criticize you, or behave negatively towards you. It's just learning and internalizing that their opinions don't matter and you shouldn't take them to heart.
But like I said, so far this sub hasn't tackled everything and I don't expect it to. I feel it has done its job in removing negativity about myself so far. But my anxiety around others is another issue that I have to deal with. So far I see an abundance of my insecurities and problems with myself were directly related to my social anxiety and how it stunted my growth as a person. So I believe that that is a job for another sub, possibly alpha 5.0 when I get the money. But in the meantime after I finish up this sub I might try out absolute self confidence.
One more thing. With the removal of negativity I've felt aspects of alpha have actually resurfaced again. It's like I did change, but then I covered it up with mud in the form of negative beliefs. Now I'm removing that mud and my previously improved state is returning. Most notably my ability to stand by my opinions and do what I feel is right. Especially when there is so much talk out there how subliminals don't really change a person at the core or are a band aid solution. Those that don't believe in the subconscious mind or subliminals, well that's their loss. I'm willing to explore my options and use that works. I find that we all take different paths, but eventually end up at the same destination.
