11-01-2019, 05:56 PM
ME: I woke up with what felt like a sub hangover again today. Whatever I did to extract the information I wrote last night took energy. A lot of it. I felt exhausted until I started to get ready for work. Then I realized that my mind felt absolutely clear. It was a very visceral sensation. My thoughts were my own, and there was a distinct lack of noise and pressure that I hadn’t really realized was there. It’s silent and peaceful in my head for the first time I can remember. Comparing my mind even a few months ago to what I woke up to this morning is like comparing the inside of a gaudy Vargas casino to a mountaintop under a clear starry night sky. The sense hasn’t gone away either. As I go about my day I still have it, though it’s not as pronounced.
For the last couple of days, I’ve had an increasing sense of my mind as a physical place that I can wonder around in. I felt the “wall” where the things about my fear of success hid behind, and it felt a little tender. Apparently I had to use a mental breaching charge to get through that sucker. Now though, where I sensed horrible things behind it, there is more peaceful emptiness.
When I came back to focusing on my body, I very clearly felt my energy field extending a few feet away from my skin. I was swimming in a soup of highly charged energy. It also felt very clean and pure. The word that came to mind was “powerful”. My subconscious voice told me “you are about to set the world on fire with this. It also said at some point “this is the last phase, you are almost through.
For the last couple of days, I’ve had an increasing sense of my mind as a physical place that I can wonder around in. I felt the “wall” where the things about my fear of success hid behind, and it felt a little tender. Apparently I had to use a mental breaching charge to get through that sucker. Now though, where I sensed horrible things behind it, there is more peaceful emptiness.
When I came back to focusing on my body, I very clearly felt my energy field extending a few feet away from my skin. I was swimming in a soup of highly charged energy. It also felt very clean and pure. The word that came to mind was “powerful”. My subconscious voice told me “you are about to set the world on fire with this. It also said at some point “this is the last phase, you are almost through.
