10-29-2019, 02:41 PM
ME: IIm still thinking about all this stuff today. I said that the biggest fears getting in my way were fear of success, fear of failure, and fear of embarrassment. With a lot more thought, it turns out that both my fear of success and failure stem from the fear of embarrassment.
I’m a little unclear on success makes me fear humiliation, but failure is pretty self explanatory, but there’s a little more to the failures I fear.
I’m not afraid of trying something and failing at it. I’m afraid of failing in front of people. Especially people who see as better than me. This is why the interview process for the job I want have been so tough on me. I see the people interviewing me, who already have the job I want as better than me. (This is a big ol self lie) I’m afraid of embarrassing myself in front of them, which makes me visibly nervous, and less able to express myself properly. I’m not so nervous about the result of the interview itself as I am of looking foolish and or weak during the process itself.
I’m a little unclear on success makes me fear humiliation, but failure is pretty self explanatory, but there’s a little more to the failures I fear.
I’m not afraid of trying something and failing at it. I’m afraid of failing in front of people. Especially people who see as better than me. This is why the interview process for the job I want have been so tough on me. I see the people interviewing me, who already have the job I want as better than me. (This is a big ol self lie) I’m afraid of embarrassing myself in front of them, which makes me visibly nervous, and less able to express myself properly. I’m not so nervous about the result of the interview itself as I am of looking foolish and or weak during the process itself.
