10-27-2019, 09:22 AM
I listened to 8 loops last night. When I started the loops I was feeling a bit scared and was feeling that I might take out the earphone during the night. The night went smooth. I slept soundly. I had a dream, which I remembered when I woke up but do not remember now. I was mentally tired and exhausted when I woke up but later I felt ok.
I was emotionally ok when I got up, but then after 1-2 hours, I got quite expressive. I said a lot of things to my wife. She was quite upset and still is angry at me. I think I was trying to put out all my negative feelings and complaints against her since my marriage. My parents think I have gotten hard-hearted in the near past days.
I was thinking during the day about the fear which is holding me back. I was wondering how would I know what it is and how will I overcome it? I have spend around half my life and whether I will be able to be prosperous or even rich.
The business is almost finished. The payment issue is not resolved and my partner seems to be disinterested.
Another thing is that I have become more self centered or more comfortable about myself. In the past I used to travel to a city for some work and return back the same day ( around 5 hours one side). I would leave early in the morning and return around midnight. I have to go again in few days and I am thinking I will stay the night and return back next day instead of same day return. One day go and return would be hectic. I am also thinking of buying new clothes for myself.
I was emotionally ok when I got up, but then after 1-2 hours, I got quite expressive. I said a lot of things to my wife. She was quite upset and still is angry at me. I think I was trying to put out all my negative feelings and complaints against her since my marriage. My parents think I have gotten hard-hearted in the near past days.
I was thinking during the day about the fear which is holding me back. I was wondering how would I know what it is and how will I overcome it? I have spend around half my life and whether I will be able to be prosperous or even rich.
The business is almost finished. The payment issue is not resolved and my partner seems to be disinterested.
Another thing is that I have become more self centered or more comfortable about myself. In the past I used to travel to a city for some work and return back the same day ( around 5 hours one side). I would leave early in the morning and return around midnight. I have to go again in few days and I am thinking I will stay the night and return back next day instead of same day return. One day go and return would be hectic. I am also thinking of buying new clothes for myself.
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