10-22-2019, 02:25 PM
Some flirting from an older lady who's high up in the company and randy look in her eyes. Toward the end of the working day I got insanely angry and tense which lasted for hours. At the same time my head was really hot for 2 hours as if the aura or sniper or whatever it is that always seems to have this effect when I run DMSI was firing hard. Had a bad mood and lots of anger toward the end of the day triggered by a spontaneous heated argument with a new manager but certainly not the true inner cause of said anger.
Found myself confidently flirting fairly sexually with a coworker at some points too.
Whatever this vicious anger and depression was that lasted for 2-3 hours this evening I do believe is caused primarily by something my subconscious is working out. I got the rage out at the gym though and hit some PRs.
Actually the past 2 days I've been experiencing some rapid shifts in attitude which have caused a lot of depression/rage and other unpleasant emotions. Yesterday I found myself fully shit testing a senior manager who's only a little older than me in front of a girl he wanted to impress. He's done it to me before and made little comments and such to put me down in front of girls and without thinking I found myself in a mini battle of wits with him yesterday morning.
DMSI seems to be building inner status beliefs of steel which are beginning to show.
Found myself confidently flirting fairly sexually with a coworker at some points too.
Whatever this vicious anger and depression was that lasted for 2-3 hours this evening I do believe is caused primarily by something my subconscious is working out. I got the rage out at the gym though and hit some PRs.
Actually the past 2 days I've been experiencing some rapid shifts in attitude which have caused a lot of depression/rage and other unpleasant emotions. Yesterday I found myself fully shit testing a senior manager who's only a little older than me in front of a girl he wanted to impress. He's done it to me before and made little comments and such to put me down in front of girls and without thinking I found myself in a mini battle of wits with him yesterday morning.
DMSI seems to be building inner status beliefs of steel which are beginning to show.
