So, after reading what @Greenduck wrote about dad getting older. Yeah, it hits me like a truck. Powerlessness is one thing that comes to mind, guilt maybe, wanting to do better. It hurts. Now that he has turned 70, it really feels close. Being real here. No loa applying or anything, just sitting with this, realizing, processing. My heart hurts man.
It brings me to the verge of tears. Truly. Its like masks that I wasnt aware of myself are falling off. Underneath the hard exterior is..idk. something raw? A boy? Getting right into the real.
I need a fucking hug T_T
It brings me to the verge of tears. Truly. Its like masks that I wasnt aware of myself are falling off. Underneath the hard exterior is..idk. something raw? A boy? Getting right into the real.
I need a fucking hug T_T
