10-16-2019, 09:25 AM
Day 14
I listened to or can say planned to listened to 6 loops at night. I put on my sleep phones and went to sleep. All through the night I kept turning and tossing. I woke up and found that phone was paused at 4.5 loops as the wire had come out of the phone. I plugged the wire again and started the sub again to finish till 6 loops. I kept sleeping and waking up during those 1.5 loops.
When I woke up I was tired and sluggish, but got better within minutes. The first thing which came in my mind was all the injustices and politics I have to face in my office and and how my salary is lower than what I deserve. These thoughts kept on coming all the way to office. But deep inside I feel good. I do not know why. I feel kinda of high. Although I had a lot of these thoughts but I still feel high and kinda of non bothered emotionally by it.
I had few dreams at night but I think they somehow might be linked to some events / conversation during the day.
I was more friendly in the office today. I talked frankly to a few people and shared some personal experience over lunch. I have normally a kind of cold war with them. I myself was surprised over my behaviour. It felt quite normal. I called a show to enquire about tickets and I had a good rapport with the guy on the phone.
During the later part of the day, I realized that something inside my brain has shifted. Literally, like something physical has moved inside in my head. I am behaving less pissed off now than generally I am. I am feeling quite relaxed somehow inside. I think 6 loops was good choice. I will check 7 loops next time.
I listened to or can say planned to listened to 6 loops at night. I put on my sleep phones and went to sleep. All through the night I kept turning and tossing. I woke up and found that phone was paused at 4.5 loops as the wire had come out of the phone. I plugged the wire again and started the sub again to finish till 6 loops. I kept sleeping and waking up during those 1.5 loops.
When I woke up I was tired and sluggish, but got better within minutes. The first thing which came in my mind was all the injustices and politics I have to face in my office and and how my salary is lower than what I deserve. These thoughts kept on coming all the way to office. But deep inside I feel good. I do not know why. I feel kinda of high. Although I had a lot of these thoughts but I still feel high and kinda of non bothered emotionally by it.
I had few dreams at night but I think they somehow might be linked to some events / conversation during the day.
I was more friendly in the office today. I talked frankly to a few people and shared some personal experience over lunch. I have normally a kind of cold war with them. I myself was surprised over my behaviour. It felt quite normal. I called a show to enquire about tickets and I had a good rapport with the guy on the phone.
During the later part of the day, I realized that something inside my brain has shifted. Literally, like something physical has moved inside in my head. I am behaving less pissed off now than generally I am. I am feeling quite relaxed somehow inside. I think 6 loops was good choice. I will check 7 loops next time.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
