10-10-2019, 04:31 PM
[The end of this entry made me laugh]
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Stage 2
Day 8
I prefer to wait atleast a week or so after starting a new stage before weighing in, so this is what I've noticed so far: I feel anxious in the mornings. I'll open my eyes and find that my pulse and breathing is erratic and I'm filled with dread. It usually starts to subside when I get out of bed and start my daily routine. For the past three days however, the anxietude and feelings of dread have lingered throughout the day with a splash of irritability. I've also been apathetic when it comes to my food choices; where I'm usually planning ahead and doing meal prep ahead of time, I find myself eating nonsense, because it's convenient and I just don't care how it'll affect my body later. I feel gloomy, with nothing to look forward to - I resent feeling this way. Despite the internal struggle, I understand that the goal is to undo years of damage and clear out the clutter that's accumulated over a lifetime... I mean superheroes take serums, get exposed to radiation, get bitten by souped up bugs, get lost in some remote location and meet a sage bearded man, collect ALL seven dragon balls, or their home explodes and they're forced to relocate - I digress. The point is, it's difficult, but they make it through, and come out the other side better than ever. I'm going to soldier on, take my serum and be an Alpha Female.
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Stage 2
Day 8
I prefer to wait atleast a week or so after starting a new stage before weighing in, so this is what I've noticed so far: I feel anxious in the mornings. I'll open my eyes and find that my pulse and breathing is erratic and I'm filled with dread. It usually starts to subside when I get out of bed and start my daily routine. For the past three days however, the anxietude and feelings of dread have lingered throughout the day with a splash of irritability. I've also been apathetic when it comes to my food choices; where I'm usually planning ahead and doing meal prep ahead of time, I find myself eating nonsense, because it's convenient and I just don't care how it'll affect my body later. I feel gloomy, with nothing to look forward to - I resent feeling this way. Despite the internal struggle, I understand that the goal is to undo years of damage and clear out the clutter that's accumulated over a lifetime... I mean superheroes take serums, get exposed to radiation, get bitten by souped up bugs, get lost in some remote location and meet a sage bearded man, collect ALL seven dragon balls, or their home explodes and they're forced to relocate - I digress. The point is, it's difficult, but they make it through, and come out the other side better than ever. I'm going to soldier on, take my serum and be an Alpha Female.
