10-08-2019, 08:39 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-08-2019, 10:31 AM by guyinlahore.)
Day 7
I could not sleep last night properly, kept waking up. The issues of last day keep coming into my mind. I traveled to another city today. The feeling is quite different. I am feeling less excited than my last trips. But in some way I feel more in control more wise in the way I am perceiving and dealing with things. I am trying not to think about last night news. although I know I will have to face this head on later in some time.
I had a dream that some acquantinace of my father who is a mechanic has invited us. My father, mother and me arrive in his workshop. It is a small square building made of red bricks with some type of roof (not concrete or bricks). There are some empty chairs and a big table / stage in front of it. The guy is sitting at the table. The chairs are empty. The overall building is somewhat lower than my living quality standards. The guy and people on the side of the building seem uneducated. Next moment I see myself sitting against a wall with my parents sitting next to me. I have a small earth pot in my hand. The pot is empty like I have finished whatever was inside it. I am scrapping of the remaining white (either milk, cream or pudding) and licking my fingers. The guy comes and asks me if I like it. I praised the flavour. Then I noticed 2 toilets with no doors and bit dirty. I felt like going but hesitates due to the dirtiness. then I woke up and it was like 6:30 am and I needed to pee.
There is one difference I felt in this trip. I feel more self worthy of myself. Normally when I book a hotel, somehow the good hotels do not have any room available and I turn to some of the cheap hotels and think about saving some money. Although my office pays for the hotel. This time as usual I did not book my hotel booking in time and could not find any room in the good hotels I prefer. However, I did find a nice room in a hotel which in terms of comfort and rating is slightly below these hotels. I am feeling like I deserve to be in a good room and strangely I am not thinking of saving money on cost of comfort and cleanliness. Another thing which I forgot to add is I gave double tip of what I normally would pay and also paid some tip to the laundry guy.
Another positive development of today is that a colleague / senior co worker has mentioned about an upcoming conference / workshop overseas and indicated that I am also invited. I do not remember any such invitation but will check in next few days.
I will be doing 1 loop tomorrow.
I could not sleep last night properly, kept waking up. The issues of last day keep coming into my mind. I traveled to another city today. The feeling is quite different. I am feeling less excited than my last trips. But in some way I feel more in control more wise in the way I am perceiving and dealing with things. I am trying not to think about last night news. although I know I will have to face this head on later in some time.
I had a dream that some acquantinace of my father who is a mechanic has invited us. My father, mother and me arrive in his workshop. It is a small square building made of red bricks with some type of roof (not concrete or bricks). There are some empty chairs and a big table / stage in front of it. The guy is sitting at the table. The chairs are empty. The overall building is somewhat lower than my living quality standards. The guy and people on the side of the building seem uneducated. Next moment I see myself sitting against a wall with my parents sitting next to me. I have a small earth pot in my hand. The pot is empty like I have finished whatever was inside it. I am scrapping of the remaining white (either milk, cream or pudding) and licking my fingers. The guy comes and asks me if I like it. I praised the flavour. Then I noticed 2 toilets with no doors and bit dirty. I felt like going but hesitates due to the dirtiness. then I woke up and it was like 6:30 am and I needed to pee.
There is one difference I felt in this trip. I feel more self worthy of myself. Normally when I book a hotel, somehow the good hotels do not have any room available and I turn to some of the cheap hotels and think about saving some money. Although my office pays for the hotel. This time as usual I did not book my hotel booking in time and could not find any room in the good hotels I prefer. However, I did find a nice room in a hotel which in terms of comfort and rating is slightly below these hotels. I am feeling like I deserve to be in a good room and strangely I am not thinking of saving money on cost of comfort and cleanliness. Another thing which I forgot to add is I gave double tip of what I normally would pay and also paid some tip to the laundry guy.
Another positive development of today is that a colleague / senior co worker has mentioned about an upcoming conference / workshop overseas and indicated that I am also invited. I do not remember any such invitation but will check in next few days.
I will be doing 1 loop tomorrow.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
