CatMan: Hello Kitty!

[ichigo]

Appetite is extreme on this. I HATE this. I've already gained over 4 pounds...IN FOUR DAYS. This is going to be a constant struggle yet again to not get fat once more. I worked so hard years ago to use intermittent fasting to lose 65 pounds, I've been so proud of that. UMS was already giving me so much trouble. I've slowly crept up and up and up, now I'm up 17 pounds in total from that point I hit when I lost the 65. This is intolerable, I won't let that happen again. I'm never going back to 252 pounds again, that was outrageous and I felt terrible about myself. The program is continuing to source massive sums of calories...and then apparently doing nothing with them all. Why I don't know...I just know I'm never going back to that weight ever again, regardless. I know the sub needs "energy", which is great, but I'm not letting myself balloon up again, so maybe I'll get very extreme with food if something has to give. I just know I'm NEVER going back to that size...EVER again.

Based on what's in the script this is absolutely positively a defense/manipulation tactic your subconscious is using to both "make you feel safe" (gain weight and use it as a shield, I never understood why the subconscious associates weight gain with safety), and to create conflict between your conscious mind and DMSI usage to try to get you to stop using it.  You absolutely cannot be ingesting calories and then storing them as weight if you are executing the script.  This is a fear response.

I get the rationale behind this, but I think it's because the feeling of hunger DMSI produces makes you eat more than you otherwise would. If DMSI is using an additional 100+ calories per day to power itself for example, it doesn't help to offset the additional 500+ calories that are getting consumed because the feelings of hunger are leading to binge eating. That's my problem when running DMSI and I suspect Catman's too.

Not sure if there's a fix, other than adding appetite supression into the script?