09-30-2019, 04:26 PM
A FRM wondering:
I've noticed the last 2 days (been on DMSI 3 days now), my name recall has definitely been off. I noticed it today while talking with a coworker, and I noticed it while showering tonight.
I'm wondering if the FRM is loosening me up from so many relationship fears I've held to, and I'm speaking of both men and women. For example, my coworker was REALLY in my corner today, saying again and again how he'd always back me were our jobs switched. I'd done a lot more than other workers had with him, and he was really appreciative. But I noticed my own fears trying to come out. The fear was "you may hurt me if I trust you", which comes from me and my brother's past since I relied on him heavily growing up.
So, I've been spotty at times with names, realizing that I've used others to (unknowingly) shield me from my own fears. I've used this a lot at work, and this is where I've been noticing the change.
I've noticed the last 2 days (been on DMSI 3 days now), my name recall has definitely been off. I noticed it today while talking with a coworker, and I noticed it while showering tonight.
I'm wondering if the FRM is loosening me up from so many relationship fears I've held to, and I'm speaking of both men and women. For example, my coworker was REALLY in my corner today, saying again and again how he'd always back me were our jobs switched. I'd done a lot more than other workers had with him, and he was really appreciative. But I noticed my own fears trying to come out. The fear was "you may hurt me if I trust you", which comes from me and my brother's past since I relied on him heavily growing up.
So, I've been spotty at times with names, realizing that I've used others to (unknowingly) shield me from my own fears. I've used this a lot at work, and this is where I've been noticing the change.
I want to be FREE!
