09-20-2019, 09:29 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-20-2019, 09:31 AM by Chris P. Bacon.)
So after some consideration I decided to give the new DMSI a shot. My last loop of UMS was Sunday night and that'll be it for me. Tonight I'll buy DRS and run it soon. I've never had any major issue from turbulence so I'll be running DRS soon and DMSI as soon as it gets released.
To be honest I've never been that interested in the main goal of DMSI even as I ran it for a year 2 years ago. I turned down many possible sexual partners when running it. The only one I would have possibly considered was a woman who when our eyes met we both stopped and stared for a good 2 seconds. That was the deepest non friend connection I have ever experienced with a woman and it lasted just a moment. However, she was with her boyfriend and regardless of her possible willingness to cheat or break up with him for me I won't participate in that kind of behavior out of personal choice. I wouldn't want that done to me and even if someone was willing to do that to me I won't do that to someone else. Funny though, saw her at my workplace less than a week later. Definitely a manifestation.
I'm more looking for a serious relationship at this point in my life, but I believe it's possible to bring a wonderful woman into my life with DMSI that would be a long term relationship.
The reason I want to run it is to tear down some walls from her showing up in my life. I can feel part if me resisting the idea of her coming into my life. Its time to go. It's a longshot but that's my goal for DMSI.
Also, I'm not a fan of the statistic that half of the sexually active people in the US have some STD. I can do my due diligence, but people can lie.
So here's to my convoluted new DMSI chapter
If you made it this far I'll now update you on UMS. UMS has broken through some major and deep issues no other sub has in the last week. I was feeling pretty emotional and mopey last week and I suddenly realized it could be resistance. As soon as i did it broke for the better. Not instantly, but a moderately paced resolving of issues 1 by 1. 2 weeks ago I had a dream where I almost drowned super realistic and I just barely made it to the surface before I ran out of air. It's obvious my subconscious was feeling the pressure. I was kind of excited about it. Been more willing to be confrontational and that's good.
The NDRS has helped me realize that I was always subtly under the thumb of other peoples energy. Since being on it I've been ok around others when they are getting emotional. Its transformed how I approach life and interactions. Cant wait to use the DRS. I'm wondering if it will reflect if people are saying stuff about you from a distance.
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To be honest I've never been that interested in the main goal of DMSI even as I ran it for a year 2 years ago. I turned down many possible sexual partners when running it. The only one I would have possibly considered was a woman who when our eyes met we both stopped and stared for a good 2 seconds. That was the deepest non friend connection I have ever experienced with a woman and it lasted just a moment. However, she was with her boyfriend and regardless of her possible willingness to cheat or break up with him for me I won't participate in that kind of behavior out of personal choice. I wouldn't want that done to me and even if someone was willing to do that to me I won't do that to someone else. Funny though, saw her at my workplace less than a week later. Definitely a manifestation.
I'm more looking for a serious relationship at this point in my life, but I believe it's possible to bring a wonderful woman into my life with DMSI that would be a long term relationship.
The reason I want to run it is to tear down some walls from her showing up in my life. I can feel part if me resisting the idea of her coming into my life. Its time to go. It's a longshot but that's my goal for DMSI.
Also, I'm not a fan of the statistic that half of the sexually active people in the US have some STD. I can do my due diligence, but people can lie.
So here's to my convoluted new DMSI chapter
If you made it this far I'll now update you on UMS. UMS has broken through some major and deep issues no other sub has in the last week. I was feeling pretty emotional and mopey last week and I suddenly realized it could be resistance. As soon as i did it broke for the better. Not instantly, but a moderately paced resolving of issues 1 by 1. 2 weeks ago I had a dream where I almost drowned super realistic and I just barely made it to the surface before I ran out of air. It's obvious my subconscious was feeling the pressure. I was kind of excited about it. Been more willing to be confrontational and that's good.
The NDRS has helped me realize that I was always subtly under the thumb of other peoples energy. Since being on it I've been ok around others when they are getting emotional. Its transformed how I approach life and interactions. Cant wait to use the DRS. I'm wondering if it will reflect if people are saying stuff about you from a distance.
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