09-18-2019, 10:07 PM
ME: I went to a jui Jitsu class on Monday night. That’s something I’ve been involved with since I was a kid, and always loved. I haven’t been doing it for years because of money and time concerns as well as what I may as well admit is depression. It felt great even though I’m more than a bit rusty and my body definitely doesn’t respond like it did in my twenties.
The next day I felt like I’d been beaten with a bag of doorknobs. I should have been moving very slowly and not doing much, but I’ve got to get the house ready to be appraised. That’s the next step we have to take to improve our financial condition, so I was on it and got an amazing amount of work done. There’s still a lot to do, but there is noticeable progress, and that feels great.
This morning it hit me that I have absolutely no negative thoughts about finance at all. I am absolutely sure that my plan for getting us out of financial trouble will work in short order, and everything will be good from then on. Matter of fact, I’m thinking like it’s already happened. The phrase “were back on an even keel and we’ve got the wind at our backs”. went through my head repeatedly today. That’s a little odd, I’m not a sailor and don’t tend to think in nautical terms.
I also got stuck in traffic on the way to work this afternoon I was very close to being late. What hit me was how calm I was. The thought of being late for work used to really freak me out because I’d always try to be perfect and falling short upset me. This time, I just fighred it would be ok because I’m never late and a lot of my co workers are.
WIFE: There has been a major change in her. She had a couple of days where she was very frustrated at something. She told me what was frustrating her rather than taking it out on me. If anyone wonders why this amazes me, see my LTU journal. Funny thing is, I don’t think she noticed.
The next day I felt like I’d been beaten with a bag of doorknobs. I should have been moving very slowly and not doing much, but I’ve got to get the house ready to be appraised. That’s the next step we have to take to improve our financial condition, so I was on it and got an amazing amount of work done. There’s still a lot to do, but there is noticeable progress, and that feels great.
This morning it hit me that I have absolutely no negative thoughts about finance at all. I am absolutely sure that my plan for getting us out of financial trouble will work in short order, and everything will be good from then on. Matter of fact, I’m thinking like it’s already happened. The phrase “were back on an even keel and we’ve got the wind at our backs”. went through my head repeatedly today. That’s a little odd, I’m not a sailor and don’t tend to think in nautical terms.
I also got stuck in traffic on the way to work this afternoon I was very close to being late. What hit me was how calm I was. The thought of being late for work used to really freak me out because I’d always try to be perfect and falling short upset me. This time, I just fighred it would be ok because I’m never late and a lot of my co workers are.
WIFE: There has been a major change in her. She had a couple of days where she was very frustrated at something. She told me what was frustrating her rather than taking it out on me. If anyone wonders why this amazes me, see my LTU journal. Funny thing is, I don’t think she noticed.
