ME: I just finished my second night on of this set of three. Really didn’t feel much bloom during my days off this time. Everything felt pretty much normal. All of the 5.5G subs I’ve been on have had times when they feel like they’re doing nothing though, and that’s usually right before there’s some kind of breakthrough. Today my thoughts have been weird. I’ll get some negative thoughts surfacing, but there’s a positive one right behind it. It’s like there’s an argument going on in my head. The weird thing is that it seems to me like “I” am not involved in it. It’s like it’s between two other people, and I feel oddly emotionally detached from it. I’m just kind of listening.
I’m feeling kind of lost right now. I have absolutely no idea where I’m going from here. I know where I want to be financially, and with some other aspects of my life, but I really don’t know how I’m going to get from here to there. Thing is, it’s not bothering me. This line of thinking used to drive me nuts. Now, I’m ok with it for now. I still have the sense that my subconscious has a plan in mind, and I’m working toward it in some form or fashion even though all I seem to be doing at the moment is living day to day and waiting.
I’m feeling kind of lost right now. I have absolutely no idea where I’m going from here. I know where I want to be financially, and with some other aspects of my life, but I really don’t know how I’m going to get from here to there. Thing is, it’s not bothering me. This line of thinking used to drive me nuts. Now, I’m ok with it for now. I still have the sense that my subconscious has a plan in mind, and I’m working toward it in some form or fashion even though all I seem to be doing at the moment is living day to day and waiting.
