06-16-2012, 09:44 AM
(06-16-2012, 08:18 AM)Spiral Wrote: Yea... I am scared to run Remove negativity within but I may just have to do go through that before running gratitude like I originally planned.
I was never really scared to run this sub because I was at rock bottom and willing to do anything. Here's the thing to keep in mind, I may not have been scared of the sub itself, but I was sure as hell scared of the results. The thing is I've realized that when you go to remove fear or negativity that holds you back, imagining a life without it is hard because that same fear still exists within you. It's like you fear letting go of the fear because then that opens you up to the world which you may currently fear haha. It's a little confusing, but it makes sense when you think about it.
But like I said in my other post, remove expectations and just take it one day at a time and notice any changes that occur. The other reason I decided to run this sub was so I could allow other subs to affect me with minimal resistance from my mind. I have a deep fear of change and that caused heavy resistance from the alpha set, so I'm addressing that fear more directly with this sub.
K-Train Wrote:Matt, as a person who struggled with severe confidence issues and self doubt I believe you have made a very good decision to run this sub for 3 months. Before using ASC.I was a wreck. Everything I'd gained from the Alpha set appeared gone and distant. But I made it a point to run ASC.for 3 months. Best decision I've made all year. Running RNIW will completely change you man, for a while, it will feel strange because you're mind will be devoid of negativity creating a serene feeling within you. I urge you to stay the course and no matter what, DO NOT STOP.
Hmmm, I may run through ASC after this as well. What you described is similar to what I felt when I ran Alpha. I think I may have rejected a lot of the programming in alpha after I was done due to my fear of change. The changes were more prominent during alpha probably because I was getting consistent exposure, once that stopped my mind might have sabotaged those efforts in a way.
Anyway I do feel like I'm moving closer and closer to that serene feeling. At first I felt very reluctant to give up my negativity, almost like a selfish child. But I've slowly been able to part ways with it.
