ME: I haven’t noticed much new stuff lately. My attitude is generally positive, especially about money and jobs. I also feel pretty good most of the time. The morphine drip effect has hit a couple of times seemingly randomly, it’s hitting right now as a matter of fact. I haven’t heard from that job I interviewed for on Friday. Thing is, I’m not only not worried about it, I’m barely even thinking about it. There were a few things I could have done better, so I’ll learn from that, but if that job is the best thing for me, I’ll hear back, if not, I won’t. My ego isn’t nearly as tied up in it as it used to be. I got a phone interview set up for that out of state job I mentioned. I don’t know if that would turn out to be a good idea or not, but I’m keeping the possibility open. Again, if it’s the best move, it’s the one i’ll End up making. Liminal states Used to drive me up a wall and across the ceiling. This one feels oddly good. It’s like all of these possibilities are open, and I’m anticipating seeing which one unfolds. I don’t even know if the best ones have shown themselves yet. The return of the random anger that had disappeared on LTU seems to have leveled off and is starting to go away. I seem to be doing better on three on and seven off than I was with one on.
Oh, there is something new. I am much more aware of dreaming. I woke up this morning with a nonsensical phrase going through my head that someone had just said to me in a dream. I have no memory of the dream itself though. That’s happened a number of times where I’m aware that I was dreaming even though I don’t remember the dream.
WIFE: It’s funny looking at it from the outside. She is clearly becoming more positive and less depressed day after day. It’s evident in her tone of voice, movements, word choices and her face. I don’t think she really knows it though. She actually says that she doesn’t. She continues to state as a fact that she’s getting the job that she has the interview for and she seems to really believe that. Another agency, this one she applied for called her to set up an interview as well.
We were out to dinner at this place that was having a special on cheap take home meals if you buy an eat in meal. The wife gave this real complicated special order, and while we were waiting the power went out briefly. That caused our meals to take a long time (didn’t seem that long really) something happened with the special order, not sure what. They comped her meal and several of the take homes, and seemed a lot more apologetic than I’d expect. It took a lot off the bill. Small thing but I suspect it’s sub related.
In other news, her mom had a thing that isn’t exactly cancer eat part of her spine and has been pretty disabled since. She came to town and had some kind of surgery. She hasn’t been responding to physical therapy after. I reciognise that it’s because she has given up. I think that when the next MHS comes out, I’m going to give her a copy and something to play it on.
Oh, there is something new. I am much more aware of dreaming. I woke up this morning with a nonsensical phrase going through my head that someone had just said to me in a dream. I have no memory of the dream itself though. That’s happened a number of times where I’m aware that I was dreaming even though I don’t remember the dream.
WIFE: It’s funny looking at it from the outside. She is clearly becoming more positive and less depressed day after day. It’s evident in her tone of voice, movements, word choices and her face. I don’t think she really knows it though. She actually says that she doesn’t. She continues to state as a fact that she’s getting the job that she has the interview for and she seems to really believe that. Another agency, this one she applied for called her to set up an interview as well.
We were out to dinner at this place that was having a special on cheap take home meals if you buy an eat in meal. The wife gave this real complicated special order, and while we were waiting the power went out briefly. That caused our meals to take a long time (didn’t seem that long really) something happened with the special order, not sure what. They comped her meal and several of the take homes, and seemed a lot more apologetic than I’d expect. It took a lot off the bill. Small thing but I suspect it’s sub related.
In other news, her mom had a thing that isn’t exactly cancer eat part of her spine and has been pretty disabled since. She came to town and had some kind of surgery. She hasn’t been responding to physical therapy after. I reciognise that it’s because she has given up. I think that when the next MHS comes out, I’m going to give her a copy and something to play it on.
