08-13-2019, 06:45 AM
So...My 2 friends from another city came to my city for a week. We were all hanging out together with another friend of mine. Let's call her "Jane". Jane is a type of girl that can make friends with anyone. And half of the time I felt jealous. Jealous that she can make friends with anyone. Jealous that my friends like her so much. Jealous when they joked on my expense on how the next time they are just gonna stay with her and not me. And logically I know there is no need to feel jealous. I like that they get along so much. Yet...I still feel jealous. And I hate feeling that way. I don't want to be like that. They did nothing to deserve such behaviour from me. Jane noticed me being moody and irritable but she has no clue why. I used to feel jealous like that before but like just a pinch of it. Now it feels really intensified. It must be the E3 in UMS. Except I have NO clue how is that relevant for me achieving UMS....
Other than that, not really much to report. My relatives from USA came so I am spending most of my time with them. They got me presents but I don't really count that as an effect of UMS because they always get me presents when they come here. I did cut some of my expenses, like the small stuff you sometimes forget. A lot of dreams involving high school. Last night I dreamt of finding euro bills on the floor and gathering them. Then someone wanted me to give them the money but I refused lol.
Also, I can't say that I have noticed the bloom. There are days where I feel much more positive but it only lasts like a couple of hours and then it's gone.
Other than that, not really much to report. My relatives from USA came so I am spending most of my time with them. They got me presents but I don't really count that as an effect of UMS because they always get me presents when they come here. I did cut some of my expenses, like the small stuff you sometimes forget. A lot of dreams involving high school. Last night I dreamt of finding euro bills on the floor and gathering them. Then someone wanted me to give them the money but I refused lol.
Also, I can't say that I have noticed the bloom. There are days where I feel much more positive but it only lasts like a couple of hours and then it's gone.
