08-09-2019, 01:51 PM
Ugh indecision. I guess the question is, what's the real problem here? Is it really financial stuff? Or is it just a projection of something else? I'm not gonna lie LTU has been incredibly rough for me lately. I wake up in the morning nauseous. Last night I didn't sleep well. It's been ramping up and to me that seems like a piece of me is losing more and more control. I can't quit now.
I'm really a mess right now. My apartment is not terrible but it could use cleaning. I feel like shit because of it. I don't have the energy to clean, but I feel like most people would accuse me of being lazy. I haven't been eating well. I don't feel hungry a lot of the time. When I do cook for myself I try to give myself enough portions for lunch, but sometimes it doesn't work out so I just don't eat for lunch. Right now I feel like I can't take care of myself all that well.
I know I'm supposed to execute everything for LTU, but I'm just tired. I really only have enough energy for my music and beyond that I'm dragging myself. That's why I'm sticking to LTU. It's really important to me. I need to better myself, I need to break these habits, I need to heal myself for myself out of compassion. Right now I just feel so beat down. Like I can't handle my life right now, can't handle the idea of the necessities for survival in life.
I'm really a mess right now. My apartment is not terrible but it could use cleaning. I feel like shit because of it. I don't have the energy to clean, but I feel like most people would accuse me of being lazy. I haven't been eating well. I don't feel hungry a lot of the time. When I do cook for myself I try to give myself enough portions for lunch, but sometimes it doesn't work out so I just don't eat for lunch. Right now I feel like I can't take care of myself all that well.
I know I'm supposed to execute everything for LTU, but I'm just tired. I really only have enough energy for my music and beyond that I'm dragging myself. That's why I'm sticking to LTU. It's really important to me. I need to better myself, I need to break these habits, I need to heal myself for myself out of compassion. Right now I just feel so beat down. Like I can't handle my life right now, can't handle the idea of the necessities for survival in life.
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