UMS. Let’s get at it

[Paul1131]

ME: I feel perfectly normal today. At least on the surface. I don’t feel any fatigue or anything going on with my energy system. Not that it’s not, I just think I’m so used to it that it’s now part of normal. I still feel positive about our financial future even though I really don’t have much of a vision of the way forward. I just have the sense that if I keep going, I will get somewhere worth going. Once again, my subconscious knows what it’s doing and it’s working the plan. When the time comes either my intuition will guide me the right way or something will just happen. At the moment I’m just plain not worried about it. I suspect that there’s more going on here that I’m not consciously noticing, so I am going to wait until Friday night to run my next loop as I had planned.

WIFE: After my last entry she told me that she was feeling even more down. She texted the following “I just don’t feel like I can do this again. I’m fatigued, my lower back keeps me from bending, I question myself and skill set / my worthiness and it feels like the previously helpful system is no longer helpful. I’m about to be 40 and I just want to give up. I’d declare bankruptcy but then you loose the bike and the car. I screwed up by not filing right away and now am ***ked”.
However shortly after that she started actively looking for jobs, so maybe the bad feelings are starting to act as a goad to improve the situation.