08-06-2019, 05:15 PM
So it seems that everything settling down a bit now and life is getting back to normal. Drive is now high and whatever ugliness was happening has settled or disappeared or something like that. Burnout symptoms have calmed down a lot and energy levels are in the 80% area if I had to put a number on it. I don't know if pushing myself so hard was a good or bad thing honestly. Sure I got really close to quitting my job but at the same time, I really pushed myself into a place that required my stuff to come forth and be dealt with............maybe. Maybe that razor's edge place of being close to total exhaustion but hitting it is a place of growth for me, or maybe I just got lucky. Not sure I'd do it again and I don't recommend it.
I possibly feel the aura coming off of me and I haven't listened to the sub since Sunday (it might also be niacin that I took as well, they feel somewhat the same to me). One thing to note is that I generally feel TID execution is better for me than when I actually run the sub, and I find that odd and a little confusing. However, starting at around 3:45 pm I felt like I was experiencing TID when it was likely execution after overcoming whatever was going on earlier today. Not sure if that will continue but I know something in my beliefs has changed and something about that is releasing a different vibe off of me.
Going to be early.
I possibly feel the aura coming off of me and I haven't listened to the sub since Sunday (it might also be niacin that I took as well, they feel somewhat the same to me). One thing to note is that I generally feel TID execution is better for me than when I actually run the sub, and I find that odd and a little confusing. However, starting at around 3:45 pm I felt like I was experiencing TID when it was likely execution after overcoming whatever was going on earlier today. Not sure if that will continue but I know something in my beliefs has changed and something about that is releasing a different vibe off of me.
Going to be early.
