UMS, The Sub Formerly Known as UMS

[Chris P. Bacon]

Something ugly has surfaced, not sure I'd its gone or if it is being worked on under the surface again after rearing its ugly head.

I've always had this ability to shift the "atmosphere" in the room or wherever I am and I could tell people were feeling that ugliness coming off of me. Everything I feel I feel strongly and that has helped and harmed me in life. I have stuffed it but i am more comfortable experiencing feelings again because I don't get lost in them like I used to. Thank you IML for that.

Ate a bit for lunch and everything's seemed to settle down. Willing to go through this ugliness to better myself. It really feels like a unhealthy desire for money that stems from lack of it. I see it in my dad and I feel it in me. Not sure about anymore than that. I'm probably going to write down some of my feelings about this as they unfold because it seems important to do so. Also, this is something preventing me from the goals of UMS.

Also as a side note, it's kind if odd to be detached enough to feel my own emotions are offputting.