08-02-2019, 03:55 PM
Took Shannon's advise about working on music without releasing or sharing. It's been helping. I'd be lying if I said I didn't seek some kind of validation out of making my music. It's weird though, I'm not needy about it. Hell I don't even like sharing my music half the time and when people say they like it I just feel awkward about it. Yet I still have a tendency to look outward to see if what I create is good. Dumb stuff too, like worrying if my drums punch enough. But the question I rarely ask myself is how do I want these to sound? Vs how should they sound. I think I'm still just very insecure about my stuff and the fact is I should do what I like, but at the same time I need to take pride in what I create as well.
On that note I've let go of the ridiculous standards I was striving for. I reframed it though. I told myself if I hear an artist I like and admire their music production skills, I should only strive for their level if it helps me communicate my own ideas. Otherwise it's born out of insecurity and I'm only going to stress myself out trying to be "good".
Completely unrelated but I'm catching feelings for a girl I work with. And I swear ever since I started upping my exposure to LTU she's been talking with me more. She's married though and pregnant, that's pretty much a no go. So I'm just sitting on these feelings hoping the infatuation passes. Maybe if I'm lucky it'll be more of a friendship thing it evolves into. But one thing is for certain, this happens all the time when I get the slightest bit of attention from someone I like.
On that note I've let go of the ridiculous standards I was striving for. I reframed it though. I told myself if I hear an artist I like and admire their music production skills, I should only strive for their level if it helps me communicate my own ideas. Otherwise it's born out of insecurity and I'm only going to stress myself out trying to be "good".
Completely unrelated but I'm catching feelings for a girl I work with. And I swear ever since I started upping my exposure to LTU she's been talking with me more. She's married though and pregnant, that's pretty much a no go. So I'm just sitting on these feelings hoping the infatuation passes. Maybe if I'm lucky it'll be more of a friendship thing it evolves into. But one thing is for certain, this happens all the time when I get the slightest bit of attention from someone I like.
INFP
