07-19-2019, 02:45 AM
Had a serious mood swing. Found out one of the engineers at my job got fired. Not because he was slacking, but in their words "too good". This guy moved here with his family under the assumption this would be long term. There's such a disregard there for him as a human being, it makes me sick. I've been talking with this girl at work and she has more direct interaction with the more head guys and she says there's a lot of throwing people under the bus and violation of trust.
It's just, I want to trust people. I try to see the best in people, but really all it ever does is leave me vulnerable for manipulation. I came to learn that the guy that owns this company didn't even build it from the ground up. His rich dad bought it for him. So he has a fundamental lack of understanding of moral or treating employees as human beings, not resources to be exploited and thrown away.
I think I project a lot. Assuming most people are on a journey to self improvement and constant self awareness to be a better person. Essentially that they are like me. I've held onto this view for a while because honestly facing the reality of how some people are fills me with so much sadness. That and I hate being cynical. But there comes a time when its not me being cynical, it's just me accurately reading what's in front of me. Granted I'm not saying everyone is like this and I've given up on faith in humanity, but I need to learn when to take off the Rose colored glasses and admit the truth.
It's just, I want to trust people. I try to see the best in people, but really all it ever does is leave me vulnerable for manipulation. I came to learn that the guy that owns this company didn't even build it from the ground up. His rich dad bought it for him. So he has a fundamental lack of understanding of moral or treating employees as human beings, not resources to be exploited and thrown away.
I think I project a lot. Assuming most people are on a journey to self improvement and constant self awareness to be a better person. Essentially that they are like me. I've held onto this view for a while because honestly facing the reality of how some people are fills me with so much sadness. That and I hate being cynical. But there comes a time when its not me being cynical, it's just me accurately reading what's in front of me. Granted I'm not saying everyone is like this and I've given up on faith in humanity, but I need to learn when to take off the Rose colored glasses and admit the truth.
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