07-17-2019, 11:03 AM
May I ask for some specific examples of "more of it"? 1 loop when needed? More loops overnight?
One of my foremost concerns is how anger has been surfacing on it lately when I've used it while awake. Like LTU is bringing old experiences, memories, and feelings together quickly, I'll feel pain and anger over it, and will often simmer for an hour or more. I've not been comfortable in my anger since I'm having old associations in my mind between anger and hurting others.
I've not used LTU since 2 nights ago, knowing I did not want to estrange my daughter in anger. I even did some intentional rule 4 work requesting I not damage her or our relationship while I'm here. So far, so good.
In fact, today I requested a down day since grief is slowly coming, I'd been reading some this morning, she walked into my room, got a book off her bookshelf, and handed it to me saying "you should read this. It could really help you during this time". She then left. I'm reading it presently. The book is titled "A Monster Calls", and it's about a 13 year old boy living with his mom. His mom is going through late stage cancer treatments, and his imagination is having him work out his deepest fears he's been avoiding. I'm 1/3 through, and I've shed some tears. Very appropriate for the circumstances.
I know I've been seeking courage to face my circumstances, both past and present. I'll finish up the book today. And as advised, I'll run LTU loops tonight.
Thank you for the directions.
One of my foremost concerns is how anger has been surfacing on it lately when I've used it while awake. Like LTU is bringing old experiences, memories, and feelings together quickly, I'll feel pain and anger over it, and will often simmer for an hour or more. I've not been comfortable in my anger since I'm having old associations in my mind between anger and hurting others.
I've not used LTU since 2 nights ago, knowing I did not want to estrange my daughter in anger. I even did some intentional rule 4 work requesting I not damage her or our relationship while I'm here. So far, so good.
In fact, today I requested a down day since grief is slowly coming, I'd been reading some this morning, she walked into my room, got a book off her bookshelf, and handed it to me saying "you should read this. It could really help you during this time". She then left. I'm reading it presently. The book is titled "A Monster Calls", and it's about a 13 year old boy living with his mom. His mom is going through late stage cancer treatments, and his imagination is having him work out his deepest fears he's been avoiding. I'm 1/3 through, and I've shed some tears. Very appropriate for the circumstances.
I know I've been seeking courage to face my circumstances, both past and present. I'll finish up the book today. And as advised, I'll run LTU loops tonight.
Thank you for the directions.
I want to be FREE!
