07-17-2019, 07:12 AM
(07-15-2019, 03:51 PM)Shannon Wrote: If you're trying to run, then what you're using might be if it's what you're trying to run from.
Maybe. It just touches on some major fears presently instead of moving in and making changes to them. It's uncomfortable.
I know I've resisted it since it, unlike any so far, has moved closer to the root than any others.
But something happened yesterday which is affecting my thinking currently. My mom passed away yesterday afternoon while in Hospice care. I live in FL, but am in KY visiting my daughter and ex, on my first day of vacation, and I got the call. I feel sooooo inhibited emotionally presently, like I feel all this pain internally, but fear and stubbornness has me holding it in. So, I'm not processing my pain effectively right now.
It's like (being honest here) I'm waiting for permission to love and care for myself while I'm around my ex and daughter. Since I've had fear of the grieving, I've resisted LTU. I've been considering UMS lately since it seems to go in cleaner and quicker, push right through old hangups, and rework old ineffective thinking. LTU is an effective sub. But the ME1 vs. ME2 seem to work at completely different speeds, which is why I'm eyeing UMS at this present time.
My main motivations for it are emotional clearing. The financial side I look forward to, moreso than I realize since old beliefs hold me up financially even in trivial matters. But what I'm reading about (less anger, clearer thinking, believing in oneself's abilities again) is drawing me in. These are old and present hangups for me, and a solution is in sight.
I want to be FREE!
