Stage 2, Day 14:
I went on the beach alone today. It was a mix of relaxation, reading books and socializing...
I had few beers with me (4 for the whole afternoon) and the more I was drinking, the more social I was becoming (duh. Anyone surprised?)
Early on, I did spot a cute brunette, she did walk past my chair and then returned back to her spot. I concluded that she came around to look at me from closer. Later on, she did left her spot for a long walk. Not too long after she left, it was my turn to want to take a walk. On my way, we did cross path. She purposefully feign non-interest by looking away. I said to myself: oh how cute, this is...
I did walk a lot. For each beer that I was drinking, I was forcing myself to take a long walk. I did spot another very attractive woman at least in 2 of my walk. I didn't approach or talk to her... My loss... On my fourth walk, when I would have had enough social momentum, she was gone...
I have met and talk with 2 regular women. One of them did actually open me. As I was walking and passing by her... She was looking at me making it impossible to not stop and talk a bit with her. I have seen her 1 or 2 times before in the last 3 weeks. She appears to be tad older than me but there is a small something about her that makes her attractive.. idk, maybe it is her energy...
The other one, looks like a wild girl. She is a tattooed redhair girl that is into cosplay... At the end of the day, we became FB friends.
So overall, no wild adventures to report... but I did enjoy myself... It was stress free unlike what I was imposing on myself early on in stage 1. I did meet few nice people... some potentially future sexual mates... Bottomline, my recent successes did really remove a lot of pressure from my shoulders. I'm currently satisfied... therefore... I don't need anything. I never felt that I ever projected a needy vibe but I possibly feel even less needy than the not needy feeling that I was having before the last 2 weeks. I didn't think that it would be possible but that is how I feel.... So I guess that it is positive in my SM journey!
I went on the beach alone today. It was a mix of relaxation, reading books and socializing...
I had few beers with me (4 for the whole afternoon) and the more I was drinking, the more social I was becoming (duh. Anyone surprised?)
Early on, I did spot a cute brunette, she did walk past my chair and then returned back to her spot. I concluded that she came around to look at me from closer. Later on, she did left her spot for a long walk. Not too long after she left, it was my turn to want to take a walk. On my way, we did cross path. She purposefully feign non-interest by looking away. I said to myself: oh how cute, this is...
I did walk a lot. For each beer that I was drinking, I was forcing myself to take a long walk. I did spot another very attractive woman at least in 2 of my walk. I didn't approach or talk to her... My loss... On my fourth walk, when I would have had enough social momentum, she was gone...
I have met and talk with 2 regular women. One of them did actually open me. As I was walking and passing by her... She was looking at me making it impossible to not stop and talk a bit with her. I have seen her 1 or 2 times before in the last 3 weeks. She appears to be tad older than me but there is a small something about her that makes her attractive.. idk, maybe it is her energy...
The other one, looks like a wild girl. She is a tattooed redhair girl that is into cosplay... At the end of the day, we became FB friends.
So overall, no wild adventures to report... but I did enjoy myself... It was stress free unlike what I was imposing on myself early on in stage 1. I did meet few nice people... some potentially future sexual mates... Bottomline, my recent successes did really remove a lot of pressure from my shoulders. I'm currently satisfied... therefore... I don't need anything. I never felt that I ever projected a needy vibe but I possibly feel even less needy than the not needy feeling that I was having before the last 2 weeks. I didn't think that it would be possible but that is how I feel.... So I guess that it is positive in my SM journey!
