07-10-2019, 02:38 AM
That's good to hear Shannon. I've definitely improved in this area, that's for certain. About 5 years back when I first started making music I'd find it anxiety inducing just being in the same room as my computer. And when I went to write stuff I'd make it about 5 minutes before the panic set in and I moved to something easier like video games or something.
I also suspected the migraine being an attempt at derailing me. I noticed on that day my body was processing a lot of fear. My theory at least was this was on a second rest day so maybe there was full execution there and part of me freaked out or couldn't handle it. Or because it was a rest day that resistant part had more influence than days I did listen. In any case it worked, I definitely didn't listen on that day. But I immediately started again as soon as I could.
This growth though definitely feels like a full time job in and of itself. I'm hoping when all is said and done this has a snowball effect and things get better and better for me. I've invested a lot of energy and time into myself, I just hope the result is what I imagine in my head.
I also suspected the migraine being an attempt at derailing me. I noticed on that day my body was processing a lot of fear. My theory at least was this was on a second rest day so maybe there was full execution there and part of me freaked out or couldn't handle it. Or because it was a rest day that resistant part had more influence than days I did listen. In any case it worked, I definitely didn't listen on that day. But I immediately started again as soon as I could.
This growth though definitely feels like a full time job in and of itself. I'm hoping when all is said and done this has a snowball effect and things get better and better for me. I've invested a lot of energy and time into myself, I just hope the result is what I imagine in my head.
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